Please, someone, can I have hugs or something. I don't know what to do. He's the one person I trust more than anyone else. I need him. He can't die. It's not fair. Please.
i'm sorry you are going through this,
have you got someone to talk to?
lots of hugs xxxxx
"Because you don't notice the light without a bit of shadow. Everything has both dark and light. You have to play with it until you get it exactly right."
In forgiving others, we are not exonerating them. They may not deserve exoneration. Rather, in forgiving others we are giving up our anger over the fact that what happened is not what "should" have happened or that our life is not the way it "should" have been.
I am so sorry for your loss.if you ever need to talk,day or night please PM me. take care and be gentle to yourself
liv.xx
There are times to stay put, and what you want will come to you.
But there are times to go out into the world and find such a thing for yourself.
I aint no abacus but you can count on me.
Thanks for the hugs, it actually does mean a lot. I have calmed down a bit now. My best friend drove up to be with me for a few hours and I am going to go see my Grandpa at some point in the next couple of days to say Goodbye. I have never lost anyone close to me before and he is the person I have always been closest too. I wanted to call him and talk to him when I was upset, because he would always make it better but then I realised I couldn't :( Stupid I know.
But just wanted to it's not stuipd sweetie, there's going to be loads of times where you want to ring him etc and have things to tell him :( It'll get easier, but right now it really hurts...I know :(
it's not stupid honey, it's just natural. it's so awful to lose someone you love.
please try to stay safe ok. not trying to guilt trip you but i think he would want you to not be too upset ok hun? it does get better emma. it takes a while sometimes but it gets better xx
Even as the stone of the fruit must break
that its heart may stand in the sun,
so must you know pain.
There are only two ways in which one can live their life. One is as though nothing is a miracle, the other is as though everything is.
Thinking of you and wondering how you are doing today? it's going to be a tough time for a while coming to terms with your loss so don't forget we are all here for you when you need to chat.
Loneliness with or without people, a feeling that comes from inside
Unable to show your true feelings, Unaware of the things that you hide
A life built around a pretending, feeling things that you think you should feel
A life unaware of it’s ending – is there a chance it could ever turn real?
My Lovely Daughters: Reason[TO]Believe, Bound by Thoughts, and Kija. My Little Sisters: Automatik Teknicolour and Pomegranate. My Big Sister: Lil-Princess. My Neice: forever_lost*
*Big cuddles* Im terribly sorry for your loss. I cant begin to imagine how hard this is for you. *More cuddles* We are all here for you. If ever you need to talk you more than welcome to pm me. Please take care of yourself.
this pic is so i can always remember jen who was my l'il sock monkey friend who has left ryl and i miss her!!! 
