I feel like giving up.
The thing is, i feel so alone, and i dont like it.
My dad is emotionally and physically abusive towards me, so obviously i cant turn to him. MY mom has told me she wants nothing more to do with me, because im an 'embaressment'.. and i should be ashamed of myself because im a mess basically. I get anxious alot.. thats why im a 'mess'. So yea i have no parents that are there for me, brother and sister have turned on me. Im walking around this house on eggshells, and i see them all together, being happy together. Dad doesnt live here, but wont be long til hes back. I can't help noticing that it would make no difference if i was gone. They wouldnt have to put up with me being in their way at least. I have no one, ive just realised. Yea i can pretend that i live in this ahppy little family, but im not meant to be here. Im like an outsider.. does anyone else feel like thsi with their family?
I feel so alone, and im actually scared of being all on my own. Im doing no one any good being here. You know, i mean im just herre, living in a place where im not wanted. I can think to myself, well ill go to uni then start my own life over there. But its just, im still on my own. No family support, no one to turn to when i have a problem. I dont think im strong enough to do all this on my own. Im really scared. Im probs just being pathetic, but i cant help how i feel. Someone, just tell me everything is going to be ok and im not being a stupid tit.
Sorry :(
