Triggering (SI/ED) - hmmm?????*may also trigger OD*
ive lost myself i really have i dont know who i am anymore i dont know who ive become
i remember when i said to myself years and years ago that i would never ever be able to cut myself now look where i am who have i become i dont know who i am anymore i dont know where to go who to talk to
ive stopped eating thats not me not the person i thought i was how does that make any sense i use to love food now i cant go near it
this isnt me, who am i? what have i become?
i dont know who i am anymore im lost in my own head
i feel like giving up
i really want to OD aswell just because i want to give up im fed up of feeling this way not knowing who i am feeling depressed and all that shit arghh!
sorry this was a really pointless post i just needed to write it down
hey
don't apologise for posting, we're here to help! sounds like things are really rough right ow, all i can say is that many of us never thought we'd end up as self harmers or with an eating disorder but it's a way of coping and not really to do with not liking food as i'm sure you know.
are you getting any prefessional support for yor issues hun? if not could you go to a doctor or someone else you trsut and let them know you're having a rough time?
don't give up hun, above all else, remember that you won't always feel this way so it's important to keep fighting.
take care
PM me anytime
xx
thanks hun yeah i see a councillor every week
but that doesnt help i feel so alone all the time ive become someone i dont want to be and now i dont know who i am because of it
Its important to seek help if you feel like this, as its the frist step of recovery. Just because things seem bad right now it doesnt mean it will always be like this. Nobody knows what happens in the future, so you shouldnt feel guilty because you didnt think you would ever cut. Life happens.
You say you feel like you dont know who you are anymore? You are still young and many young people at times lose thier identity and lose all sence of who they are, its actully more commen that you will think. Whats makes you feel like this?
Stopping eating is concerning, we need food to live and you really dont want to go down that road, if its becoming conerning to you then you should go to the doctors asap. It could aslo be a symptom of depression, again its something you will need to talk to your doctor about.
Overdosing is really not advisable, im sure you know how it does so much more damage then good. Is it worth making youself feel ill and damaging your organs? No your life is much more important than that. Did anything happen to trigger all of this off?
Take Care
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
i cant handle all the loss in my life theres so much im losing and its all at once
my best friend died, family friend died, my boyfriend broke up with me i love him sooo much, my brother left, my family is falling apart i feel like im all alone theres no one here no one at all
just feel so lonely all the time i dont know how to get through it
i cry whenever im on my own and no one knows it it hurts soo much being alone i have no one to tell me everything will be alright and give me a hug and a kiss thats all i need and i dont have it but the thing is i want it from dan my ex but that wont ever happen
i'm sorry you're dealing with so much at once hun- all i can say (and i know its not particularly comforting) is that the grief wont always be this bad- you gotta hang in there. keep trying with your counsellor and tell them how bad things are. try to get out and do thigns you enjoy, even if its hard, socialise with friends, go for a walk/ run. try not to stay in on your own too much as it allows things to build up on you.
*big hugs*
take care
its just really hard you know i dont know how much longer i can cope with it all i feel like i have to hold on2 things and yeah i know that i shouldnt but i just cant help it
have you tried doing something really phsyically exerting to take your mind off things? exercise releases endorphines which can lift your mood and make you feel a little better.
keep talking to us if you want huni.
be safe x
yeah i use 2 swim all the time but it didnt do anything really made me really paranoid more than anything i suppose i could try something else
its just really horrible feeling this way and having no one to talk to about it properly who will give you what you need the love you need in your life
i spoke to my councillor about it the other day i said that i feel really selfish by feeling like i need love when its a want and theres people who dont have homes and all that and she came back to me and said that love is a need and loads of babies use to die as they had no one who loved them as they were orphans back in the old days and when they gave them babies a teddy (something to love) they stopped dying because they had the love they needed. basicly i feel like i have no love not the love i need like the love of my family i dont have that ever
swimming made me pranoid too! try going fora run or whatever.
i agree- everyone needs love. humans are social creatures and we don't do well when we're isolated. i'm sorry you feel so alone. *hugs*. have you got close friends to turn to for support or just a hug? try getting out and meeting new people (i know its really hard when you feel crap). it might build your confidence and give you more or a network of people to turn to.
xx
i cant talk to my friends about it all i feel like im just turning everything in to me like the world revolves around me, and whenever i do try to talk to someone i end up pushing them away because they cant help me they leave me and give up arghhh why is it all so complicated
