Triggering (Substance Abuse) - I think I have a problem...
Like, I don't know how much sense this is going to make, but I think I rely on alcohol too much. Like I don't see myself as an alcoholic per se, but I need a drink at least, every day. And like, if I don't get a drink of some description, I'm so agitated and very easily annoyed.
It's starting to worry me, but I don't know how to go about getting out of this situation. It's kinda like I've stopped cutting and moved on to other things. Almost like teenage rebellion going on later. Because I was so scared of my parents I always did what they said, and now, I'm at uni, no-one can tell me what to do, so I'm doing whatever I can.
I don't know what I'm asking for in this post, someone who understands, perhaps? Sorry. It probably doesn't even make that much sense anyways.
~Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly~
I understand. When I left home I moved from SI to alcohol too. I only drank for three years before a couple of people told me to get to an AA meeting. I'm not saying that you need to do that. I've been sober for 13 years but the same feelings of frustration and hopelessness that were the reasons I SI are the reasons I drank. I just wanted to stop hurting!
It is not for me to determine if you are an alcoholic. The AA web site has lists of questions but it is up to you if you want to look.
For me, the same things that help keep me sober help me not SI, just like the same things trigger me. You've obviously thought about it.
It is great that you've connected the two.
If you want, PM me. I'll do my best to answer your questions or just listen!
Hugs!
My husband is my best friend.
In forgiving others, we are not exonerating them. They may not deserve exoneration. Rather, in forgiving others we are giving up our anger over the fact that what happened is not what "should" have happened or that our life is not the way it "should" have been.
Thanks. Once again, I'm drunk though I said I wouldn't touch the stuff today. Apparently getting bettierat typing whilsyt drunl/ . had a look at the AA website and the ansers all point to being alvoholic. But I;m too scared to go to meeting vause I font want other peoplr to knoe that I hafve a promblem with alvohol. Its too complivated, and would have pmd you blonfiebeader, but cant hadle that kingda technology right now/
Sorry ifthins makesno sense. and wasts posting room for other peoples
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Makes perfect sense to me. Only I got sober before web sites were common so for me it was drunken writing instead of drunken typing.
AA is full of other people who have a problem with Alcohol. The word anonymous is so important that it is part of the name of the organization.
PM me when you're ready to.
My husband is my best friend.
In forgiving others, we are not exonerating them. They may not deserve exoneration. Rather, in forgiving others we are giving up our anger over the fact that what happened is not what "should" have happened or that our life is not the way it "should" have been.
i think you have a problem as well. if you find yourself needing to get some sort of a drink to catch a buzz or get drunk each day, then yeah you have a problem. dont feel bad though, youre not alone. if you used to cut yourself to get by, and now you use a substance then you didnt just develop this problem, its pre-exsisting. cutting yourself is also an addiction. both addictions create a sense of escape from your problems.
i think what you ought to do, is if you are in fact an alcoholic, is to get PROFESSIONAL help because the detoxification process of alcohol can be life threatening and very dangerous because of the DT's and sickness.
what you need to do is have a determined mind to not just be clean, but live a healthy sober lifestyle. they say you should go to meetings, i say you NEED to go to meetings if you have any chance of survival. drinking is a very destructive habit on your body, as is any substance abuse, it causes severe liver damage and also damages your heart, circulatory system, and kills mannnnnnnny brain cells in the process.
get off the stuff as soon as you can.
i recommend seeing a psychiatrist to deal with past emoitional trauma, as well as problems that may cause you to use presently. find out your triggers. go to meetings. find friends/family you can rely on to help you get through rough times. MAKE SURE YOU DONT USE IF YOU HAVE A PROBLEM, it will only make it worse. talk to someone instead. stay strong and take it day by day. minute by minute if you have to.
Just want to remind you that you can PM me any time you want to talk about it. I know about AA but if something else works, great and go for it.
I've seen some awful things. Alcoholism is a deadly disease.
Chad, as an alcoholic in recovery, I'm doing what you are suggesting for hiceskater. I am in psych therapy. I go to four meetings/week and see my sponsor at three of them. By doing this I've stayed sober for 13 years. I know how alcoholism and SI are similar addictions. So I'm here whenever you want to talk.
My husband is my best friend.
In forgiving others, we are not exonerating them. They may not deserve exoneration. Rather, in forgiving others we are giving up our anger over the fact that what happened is not what "should" have happened or that our life is not the way it "should" have been.
Haven't had a drink since Tuesday night and it's killing me. There's a bottle of vodka in the kitchen. It's not mine, but it's there, and it's all I can do to not go out there and drink it.
My friend made me go and talk to my doctor about it, and he said to go to AA and all that, so now I have to summon up the courage to go.
I'm scaring myself now. Help?
~Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly~
Just find a meeting and go. Raise your hand as a newcomer. All of us in AA were scared newcomers at one point! After the meeting if someone approaches you to talk, do! You can tell them you are scared. Alcoholism is a disease of fear and loneliness.
I'm here when ever you want to talk, on this forum or via PM
Hugs
My husband is my best friend.
In forgiving others, we are not exonerating them. They may not deserve exoneration. Rather, in forgiving others we are giving up our anger over the fact that what happened is not what "should" have happened or that our life is not the way it "should" have been.
I haven't had a drink since Monday its getting harder and harder to be strong about it all. I've only recently worked out that i might be a little too attached to the drink. I'm going cold turkey or at least attempting too, it worked for the drugs and the SI so i mean if i'm strong it will work again.
I love Alcohol Induced Altruism(Laura) I still say a church steeple with a lightning rod on top shows a lack of confidence - Doug McLeod Those who believe in absurdities will commit atrocities - Voltaire
I tried, I failed. I don't know if it's because I was with people I knew and it would look odd if I wasn't drinking, but I don't want to admit to all of them that there is a problem there, yet at the same time I know that if I were to admit that there was a problem I know they'd be there to help no matter what I threw at them. They're true friends, but I don't want to burden them with anything else at the moment. So I'm going to sit here at 5am and get steadily more drunk already and not regret it until I f*ck up my exam monday afternoon, and even then afterwards I'll have alcohol so won't care.
I know the only way to go at the moment is AA but I'm too scared to actually admit to someone that there is something going on there that's actually scaring me. Especially with my drinking habits. It's the stereotypical student thing to go out almost every night and get wasted, therefore it's taken me this long to realise that what I've been doing isn't normal. Sorry if none of this made any sense, but it helped to type it all out anyways.
-Hana xxx
~Friends are angels who lift us to our feet when our wings have trouble remembering how to fly~
