failure

[magatha1123]

I can't think. All I want to do is get so high right now so I can forget everything and even if i take a lot of pills, they dont do anything although im taking them anyway. I ran so f***ing awful today and that triggered me to sobbing because i feel if i suck at something i let my brother down. and everything seems to be so much worse this year, i feel like a failure, my boyfriend tried to help but i just pushed him away. i just want to die. what's the point anyway? my brother's dead, the earth will be gone someday eventually. f*** this life.

[-Shae-Lynn*]

Sweetheart, you are not a faileur.
You made a mistake, Everyone does. I know it's hard, but you can't keep looking behind you. You can't change the past. But the future, that's yours to play with! Having a bad day can make you feel awful. Trust me. When that happens though, you have to keep pushing. Keep fighting. I'm sorry about your brother. You obviously loved him a lot. But that's a huge reason to keep fighting. Show him how strong you are. Show him that you can get through all of life's crap. He would want you to perseveer. Because maybe you are supposed to go through this so that you are a better person. So that you can help others. Who knows...

Don't give up. Don't give in. Keep breathing. Keep fighting.
If you ever need to talk, PM me anytime<3

[Stellata]

What is it that you're trying so hard to forget? You can't escape yourself, but you can learn to live with yourself more safely - what, for you, do you think might help this?