Graphic / Triggering - thought it was maybe over???

[Lost-Odd-Sock]

Hi, there, sorry to be posting without really knowing anyone but I'm so shy that I don't seem to know how to approach people without thinking I'm going to be rejected straight away, but I really need somewhere to let it all out... I'm sorry but here goes...


I've been harming myself since I was 13 (am now 21 ..nearly) and for a stage I thought that everything I was feeling was trying to turn itself into a distant memory, I had been feeling happier, my thoughts were not constantly on how and where and when was I next going to hurt myself and I had stopped taking OD's...



but over the last few months, the familiar ache has returned to my head and my heart and I feel like I'm currently stuck in the same situation I was when I was little girl.



I had, yet again, to call my ever loving partner and ask him to come visit me and hospital because I had OD'ed and he has yet again received phone call after phone call for him to take me to have stitches.



I feel like I'm letting him down and I was doing so well for so long and all I feel now is lost.
I've lost the sense of self I gained back.



Now all I can think about is where, when and how I'm next going to do myself a mischief..



I know this is kind of long and I'm sorry, no replies needed. Just need a place to be.



I feel like I've lost everything again...

[Harley]

Take a quick look at this article, it might well be of some help to you as it's exactly what I would say in this post to reply to you :)

http://www.recoveryourlife.com/index.php?categoryid=66

But certainly dont feel guilty about posting at RYL, its what we are here for and it genuinely helps you - so well done and do a lot more. The more you let out and clear up the less the urges will be.

Harley

[Stellata]

Do you have a sense of how that familiar ache got to be forefront again? What was it like for you when you were a little girl?

[Undomiel]

Hey hun..

I'm so sorry things are this hard for you at the moment and you're hurting so much..
I don't really know what to say except you sound a lot like me...you're not alone..

Please keep talking..and don't ever feel bad for posting!
PM me anytime if you want..

*Safest of Hugs*

[l'il esky]

post when ever you like sweetie we are here for you!!! *cuddles*