Triggering (SI) - I went to the docs

[brap_brap]

Hey howz you guys doing anyway get to the point.

I cut my wrist n my hand badly on wednesday nite The next morning i went to my work and i work for 1h 30 mins and my manager wanted to speak to me. Aparrently some1 seen my cut and they went to my manager and she ask to see it. But before that i went to clean it and it started to bleed.


I had no option to let ye seee it and she loooked it at and said your going to the hosp. I tried to prevent my self going but they insisted on it so i had no option. Luckily it was a volunteer who took me. The nurse who was treating my cut on my hand decided to take my sleeve up and he seen the rest of the cuts and started asking question like did ye want to die when you did this. I said no.


The volunteer came in with me so she seen them and then she phoned my manager and explained that i had 5 cuts and that i self harm. The nurse said we can treat the injurys here but i have to transfer you to a different hosp to speak to someone. When we got to the different hosp the doc looked at the cuts and she said that the nurse did a good job and she said that she's going to foned the specilist nurse to speak to me.


All the time the volunteer was in with me. The doc asked me how was i feeling and i said that i was ***** scared. Then a nurse came in to dress my wounds again and asked what happen and i said that i cut myself.

I waited half n hour and the specialist nurse came in and started to ask questions. Finally the volunteer was asked to leave me. After the nurse spoke to me she advised counsiling. Then she spoke to the volunteer. I dont know what was said. I think it was like i wasnt a danger to myself or others.

I couldve have told them that.



When i got bk to my work my manager ask me to come in to the office. I had to give consent for them to get my medical history and they have to get a report to say that i was ok to go back to work. So i had to get the a app with my doc who is like 5 hrs from where i live.


On friday morning i had the app and my cousin in law came with me and she had to start it off. All the question got asked again and the doc got the depression test out. I scored 5 and i got mild depression. The doc is going to get me counsiling.

But the bad thing is that i found out that my dad told my cousin and my cousin in law that i selfharm at a party. At that point my scars wasnt hidden at that point and they seen them Im so mad at my dad now for telling them they wouldve have found out about my SH if it wasnt for him. I got A DOC app on wednesday to get my cuts looked at but my parents are coming with me but i dont want them to come with me on wednesday. I tried to run away but my dad hid my car keys so i cant. It feels like im in a prison

[Voldemort]

Uhm. Could you edit your post into smaller chunks of texts please? A block like that makes it really hard to read.

[l'il esky]

oh cutie pie, that sounds like a horrid time you having at the mo. its horrid when your made to feel like your being monitored all the time. how has your manager reacted to everything???????
sending lots of cuddles cos i think you need them *mwah*

[blondiebear]

Aside from cleaning the current wound why did they need to know?
Your dad spoke about it at a party? Oooh, not nice.

sending cuddles

[brap_brap]

They seen the scars and i did more than one cut so it was obvious. My manager was quite nice about it she was like txt me or phone me whenever you want to. The past 3 days she phoned me but i never answered and she was like oh sorry i missed ye again i was just wandering how you are getting on. I know i dont like my dad for that now. I couldnt refuse treatment as i wouldve have went through it all again. Thankye for the hugs gives one back to each of you

[Tears of Solitude]

At least now you have your parents on your side. They are only doing what they feel is best.

I hope your wounds heal quickly

Jade xxx

[l'il esky]

glad your manager is being supportive, it really makes a difference. get that wrist better and take care cutie pie *hugs*

[chocostashchick]

ew that must have been so awkward and embarrassing and stressful, having everything come out at work like that and being forced to talk to all those people and see all those docs and nurses the whole time with the volunteer from your work there
and it must feel really intense at work now knowing that they know this huge private thing, which if you wanted them to know you probably didnt want them to find out this way. you are really lucky though that your manager and your work people seem very understanding and sympathetic and caring and sweet. calling you to leave messages and check how you are? too cute!
so i am sorry for all that stress and craziness that you just went through
and i am sorry that your dad blurted all this out at a party (umm inappropriate much?)
but OVERALL like in the long term maybe this was a good thing? because you are going to get counselling now? it sounds like you must feel really bad now and getting help is a great idea honey because you deserve to feel better
take care of yourself and update
xxxooo

[brap_brap]

yeah i do feel bad im off from my work for 2 weeks and im back at ome. My dad expects me to go to his work everyday which i cant do im kindoff runnin out of strength to do it. Where i live has no petrol and my car doesnt have any petrol so i cant go for a drive anytime like a feel like it. Thanks for the words of wisdom guys and support that ye are giving me

[Yellow]

*snuggles you*
thats all ive got right now hunni.
loves.
xxxxx