Triggering (SI/ED) - starting not to care

[bob--says--hi]

atm im really feeling like i dont give a shit about what i do to myself feels pointless in trying to sort myself out
i dont care if i cut too deep
i dont care if i stop eating
everythings gotten to the point where i just dont care!
i feel like all ive got is a few friends who i cant really talk to because if i do i will push them away and then i will have nothing so whats the point in caring about any of it

[green.eyes]

if you cant talk to your friends talk on here, talk to a doctor or counsellor. please keep yourself safe hun. if you cant go to A and E and explain why you're there- speak to the psych on duty.
keep yourself busy and distracted- try to do things you enjoy.
hang in there
*hugs*

[bob--says--hi]

i dont want to keep myself distracted because either way what happens happens and no matter what i do it wont change that or how i feel or anything. i cant talk to my councillor till tuesday and she doesnt help ever! i just dont see the point in trying or caring cause everything just turns to shit no matter how hard you try in life

[l'il esky]

*hugs* you can talk to us hun. but please look after yourself!! xx

[bob--says--hi]

im just fed iup of SH and my ED and my family and my friends and my ex's and everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i just cant handle it all so ive given up caring

[bob--says--hi]

i always push people away!
why do i do that?
fucking hell!
tonight my friend had a go at me for not telling him what was wrong?
i mean wtf?
he said that theres soo many peoples lives that are worst than mine and yeah hes probably right but i didnt even say anything i didnt even say i wasnt alright he just assumed and that makes me feel so perthectic!
ahhh!
i want 2 go cruel in a hole!