Triggering (SI) - burn baby burn

[l'il esky]

i've been complete idiot, but i cant stop.....
........ over the last week have been burning but only since yesterday has it actually burnt proper and not just gone red then back to normal.
i'm not saying its a good thing but am quite pleased with the result cos its what ive wanted all week BUT i was hoping that when i had finally achieved this i would think right thats enough but no such luck. i have burnt almost the whole circumference of my wrist about inch wide.
it doesnt even hurt, but how if this didnt stop me is anything going to stop me, its like a drug so addictive!!!! i need HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Animad]

You're never going to get to a point where you think "right, this is good enough", SH doesn't work like that, you're always going to want something better. And yeah, it does act like a drug and it's really addictive which is why you're wanting to go back and do it again but it isn't worth it, it's only going to make you want to do it more and more and get dragged deeper and deeper into it until it gets to the point where it just takes over and you can't control it any more. Just try and keep yourself safe and not look at ways of hurting yourself thinking that will put you off, more than likely it will just fuel the 'addiction'.

However, I know how hard it is trying to get through it, I'm not in the best states of mind regarding my SH and I feel really hypocritical saying this to you but in reality it isn't the best thing to do as it doesn't solve the route of your problems. If you wanna talk you can always PM me.

Kim

[l'il esky]

i know, quite good at offering advise but awful at using it on myself.
just struggling with my brain at the mo and my manager who has been very helpful confused me so much by saying she believes that because of my personality i dont want to get better cos of getting some attention- wtf!!!! i dont tell people and struggle on silently, so they make me tell them whats going on and then when you do your attention seeking. i cant handle these mixed thoughts in my head :(

[Animad]

Ignore people who say you're attention seeking. If you're trying to keep it all hidden and only talk 'bout it when you're asked you're obviously not. A lot of the time people don't understand and believe the only reason why people would cut themselves is for attention. I know personally that that is not true having only medical people seeing my scars and I'd find it very hard to detail with if someone said that about me but try to ignore them. If they are saying that then they are likely to be pretty ignorant on the subject so their advise probably won't be much good anyway especially if it's making you feel worse. Try to forget other people's comments like that as it seems like it is making you feel worse about yourself and that can only do more damage than good.

You can always PM me if you want to talk or whatever,
Kim