What's wrong with me?

[Fading-Away]

I just cut again. Except the only thing is that nothing happened today. Nothing really out of the ordinary school, work, and home the usual stresses. Then i was just sitting here watching tv and i got the strongest urge like i was going to explode if i didn't do anything about it. The next thing i know i'm digging through my draws trying to get at the bandages i hid in there, and then back at my desk taking out a razor. I'm used to cutting when i'm stressed and something has gone on that day, but just feeling the urge that strongly that i can't just ignore it doesn't really happen to me. And i had gone months without cutting before a few weeks ago when i cut again but even then i reserved it till when i was really upset. Anyways just venting

[Virenia]

*hugs* That has happened to me too many times. You never know when the urge strikes you. If you want to talk, I'm here for you.

[l'il esky]

hey hun, know that feeling only too well!! think thats part of the cr@p we have to deal with when sh!! not easy to stop what becomes habit to deal with everything and soon it becomes a way of life
*big hug*

[Aimless]

I hope the venting helped a bit. Take care of yourself, and remember - slipping up is part of the process of quitting, so I hope you don't feel bad about it. You can go for months again, just you wait - after all, you've proved that you can :)

It can be scary when you feel you have no control over when the urge hits you. It doesn't have to be connected to an immediate trigger, though. Maybe subconsciously you are still thinking about something or other that upset you, still processing it. I'm sure this will become better over time, provided you have alternatives to SI as far as stress relief is concerned.

[purplestardust2]

Hugs that happens to me sometimes, I can end up shing without any real cause, but you need to see this just as a blip and that you will get back on track again as said above it`s the **** that SHers have to deal with

[VampireLover200]

I've done the same thing. Sometimes I guess people just need to do something thats familiar to them for no good reason. Just my oppinion.