Love? Trust? Lies?

[o Abysmal o]

So I was going steady with my girlfriend for about eight months. Her parents very strict, mine though were not. We never did get to hang out much and at school she was a grade ahead of me and she did alot of stuff after school. I'm not one that has many relationships but when i do there very long.. She wrote me notes of love and admiration quiet often. Saying i was the best she'd ever had before and how great i was to her. She was incredibly nice and usually too nice, and we loved eachother very much i thought it was going to go on forever. I dreamed of having kids and being married, I was devoted to her in every way i was determined to stick with her through anything. Anyway we had decided not to do any until like 5 months or whatever and we kept true and what not then about 7 months into it she was having hard times with school and what not and im kind of a depressing person which probably didnt help to much but i tried. Then her parents found out we and some more things and were dicks about it and she was depressed for a few weeks then on the day i got my tux for prom she broke up with me saying she didnt need nor want a boyfriend currently...and then asked if i still wanted to go to prom with her. I had put all of my happiness into her, all of my trust.

I just dont see how I can come to trust anyone again when the one person i trusted the most stabbed me in the back. How can you believe anyone ever again? When you know deep down that they could be faking it all?
I know you all will say its just "teenage love man, you'll find another" but whats the point if its just going to happen again?
I'm jealous of the couple's rolling in the grass, so happy enthralled in eachother. And i say " why cant i have that? why is it so difficult to find someone like me?"
And its scary to come to the realization that...wow..i may never find that person, i might be alone for the rest of my life...

Sorry it was kinda long though i know most of you truly don't care thanks for the people who at least pretend :]

[joyous broken thing]

hey, sorry to hear you're having a rough time. it may be hard to think of it like this, but all that happiness and love and comfort with that special one person is worth the risk. i've never had that.
and you are young, perhaps circumstances just worked against you this time, there is no possible way of working out whether you'll find someone else or get back with her or whatever.
i hope that helped in some small way. having little experience doesn't enhance my support skills, but i do care,and i hope you feel better soon.
anne x

[Silver Phoenix]

I know how it feels to be hurt like that but over time you will learn to trust again. I've been with my boyfriend for over a year now but because of things that happened in the past I still find it hard to believe that I can trust him. Deep down I know that he would never do anything to hurt me but some times I expect it all to go wrong as it has in the past. The main thing is to learn from your experience, ask why she suddenly changed her mind, could it be pressure from her parents?

Honestly, yes it might happen again in the future but then again it might not, you can't miss out on an opportunity by relying on the if's and but's. The next person you meet could be the love of your life but you don't want to miss out on that because you are thinking 'but it could happen again', what if it all happens again' you never no until you experience something.

Don't lose faith in happiness and love.

Hope that makes sense and help. Also just to add I do care and I'm not just pretending

PM me anytime if you want :)

*hugs*