Triggering (SI/Suicide) - please help me...

[deviantobsession]

i dont know what to do... im loosing total control all of a sudden. im loosing my friends, and the firednships i have are owrking only one way. im not coping.. there is no one here for me except alex... and i am on the edge... i just want to break down and cry... but if i cry ill sh again... and i couldnt deal with it, i feel like im failing everyone... what do i do. ive lost someone who i care about alot because he has changed so much ... i feel like i dont know who he is and he is always expecting me to be there, and i will always be here... but i feel so lost... and soo empty.... im dying on the inside... and it hurts... and no one can save me... because its almost too late

people see me as this little 16 year old screw up and no one is helping me... no one is guiding me i know its something i have to do alone... but i feel like a kid taking its first steps...

i feel so alone... and i want to sh... but i know its wrong.. but without it i feel empty... like an artist wihtout a canvas, i need help... what do i do i feel like dying but i know its not the answer xxxxxxxx please help me

[Eve of D.]

*huggs*
I hope your alright. I'm glad you know dying is not the answer and that ur trying not to sh. i know its hard sometimes, you are doing well! Did anything happen to make u feel like your losing control? Do you know why u feel this way? i'm sorry u feel so alone. I don't think you have to do this completely alone. I'm sorry I don't have much advice, but i'm here to listen anytime you u need. It's hard when friendships seem to go only one way. We are here for you.
pm me if u want to talk.

[DUNFERMLINEBOY]

Ur not alone! you've got people here who care! When someone changes for the worst, (sometimesw with little or no warning) then it's so difficult to deal with! The way that ur are talking shows that you want to get through this and you will! You are not failing anyone, before we can think about anyone else we have to look after ourselves, otherwise we are no use to anybody else! If someone just drains us all the time then that is not doing us any good whatsoever!

Am thinkin about ya! x

[Cazki]

Hey there *gives you a big cuddle* Im so sorry that your having such a painful time. I am glad to hear that you realise self harm is wrong and that suicide isnt the answer. Keep fighting through this you can get through this. Can you talk to us about what it is thats made you feel like this? Do have an idea of what it is thats made you feel like this? Or has something triggered you? You dont have to talk to us about things that you dont want to talk about, but if you can try not to keep everything bottled up inside you then thats good because doing that will only make things worse for you. Please remember that you dont have to go through this all on your own because we are all here for you. How are you feeling today?

We will make sure that we do our best to support you for as long as you need it. Do you have any support at all? Please do your best to keep yourself distracted as much as you can. There are a whole different variety of things that you can do to keep yourself occupied, like going for a walk, posting on the fun and distractions forum, doing jobs to keep yourself busy, watching a movie, or if you think it would be of some benefit to you perhaps you could try writing down your thoughts and feelings? This link also has lots more distractions that you could try http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...ead.php?t=1403 i hope that the link i have given you helps you. The best way to do things is to do them a day at a time in small steps. Please be really gentle with yourself. Keep talking to us. My thoughts are with you.

Take care best wishes Ian xxxxxxxx