My father was extremely verbally abusive and made me touch him sexually.
He then decides that I'm not worth enough of his time and money, and abandons me.
I've been going to therapy for two years now (it was four years ago, but I was in denial about it for two years until I became suicidal (I brought
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I just don't understand HOW he could do this to me! I loved him, and I just wanted a little bit of that back.
How do I move on? Is there anything you can recommend?
I lost my therapist two months ago, so I've been having an even rougher time then usually, making me want to self harm again (and I've done so)
