I cant cope anymore, everyone who is supposed to help me is leaving me.
I am so depressed, I cant stop crying, I tried the crisis team, they were busy, I dont see the point in carrying on. I have increasingly violent thoughts in my head, mostly aimed at me, I'm back to cutting again, and I dont regret it one bit. I cant eat.
Im supposed to go to work tomorrow and Im scaired, because if Im anything like I am now, I will burst into tears at any moment without any warning. I just want to jump from my window, and break a bone or two.
I need a hug, I need someone, but I am SO alone, Ive been trapped in my room all day, slept part of the day, in the vain hope it would help, and it hasnt, I have only just got up really, and that was to just shower and put on some more pajamas.
How will I sleep, Im not tired. Im just very suicidal, alone, and scaired, how will I get through the next 12 hours?
L_M_G is my mummy :) inkerman and razorbladedarling are my two non-identical twin sprogs (concieved on same day) Scabette< cos she has the cutest puppy dog eyes and i cant resist!feeling-afraid< my bottle of glitter!! which i just have to have :Pmidnight stars< my gorgeous sister, whom i love to bits ;) Dance With The Fairy< *star*gazing*buddie :] Broken-Fairy is my partner in crime ;) little_miss is my real life saviour PaperClip is my stationary queen
Hey *Cuddles you* Sweetheart you dont have to go through this alone ok, we are all here for you. Can you talk to us about what it is thats made you feel suicidal? How long have you been feeling like this? Do you have any support at all? You can get through this, please dont give up. Can you tell us what it that your scared of? Im really sorry that things are so difficult for you and that you have started harming yourself again. Im sorry that things are so painful for you right now. If you talk to us we can help you but if you keep everything bottled up inside you it will just make things worse.
*Lots more hugs* You dont have to talk to us, but the longer you keep everything bottled up the harder things will be for you. I know this is difficult for you but please dont end your life. Suicide really isnt the answer. Alot of people care about you here at ryl, if anything happened to you it would effect alot of people in many different ways. Please think about this before you think about taking your life.
Try to keep yourself distracted as much as you possibly can. Here are some distractions that you can try, listening to music, doing jobs to keep yourself busy, watching a movie, posting on the fun and distractions forum, doing jobs to keep yourself busy, or you could try writing down your thoughts and feelings. This link also has lots of distractions that you could try http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...ead.php?t=1403 Have you tried the samaritans at all? You can ring them or you can talk to them by email or text which eve ryou prefer. Please try to stay calm ok, if you feel yourself getting worked up then its best to take a step back from everything for a moment to concentrate on your breathing. Take lotsof deep breaths. Please keep talking to us.
I spoke to my mum,, for the first time she actually helped me a bit, she could see how unwell I am, and that shocked me,, she didnt dismiss my feelings :O
I told her I was suicidal and she hasnt wanted to leave me alone,, Im not sure if thats a good thing or a bad thing, but its helped me. Im still sooo tearful, and I know I wont sleep tonight, but I will try to stay online on the distractions board. Ian,, I knew they were there, but when Im down, I honestly forget everything, I become so detached, its hard to reach out.
Thankyou for replying, all of you, I couldnt bring myself to call samaritans, I just didnt know what to say :/
Im trying,Im scaired but Im trying.
L_M_G is my mummy :) inkerman and razorbladedarling are my two non-identical twin sprogs (concieved on same day) Scabette< cos she has the cutest puppy dog eyes and i cant resist!feeling-afraid< my bottle of glitter!! which i just have to have :Pmidnight stars< my gorgeous sister, whom i love to bits ;) Dance With The Fairy< *star*gazing*buddie :] Broken-Fairy is my partner in crime ;) little_miss is my real life saviour PaperClip is my stationary queen
and Im scaired, because if Im anything like I am now, I will burst into tears at any moment without any warning. I just want to jump from my window, and break a bone or two.
