Graphic / Triggering - im breaking and i feel so lost its unreal

[XjustxanotherxgirlX]

im don't know if i'm coming or going, standing or falling, laughing or crying anymore....i'm so numb, everything has been eating away and eating away at me, i have no role, my family is breaking and im sick of hloding onto all these pieces, my friends are walking away...they dont want to be friends with the 'quiet/wrist-slitting/bulimic, as quoted...which in my opinion is bang out of order...i mean state the obvious...in my face...its not going to help...i feel i'm letting my boyfriend down because im letting myself down...i dont want to talk to him about past trauma, but then i do..so he knows why i feel like i do day in-day out, i'm tired of trying to be someone i'm ot, happy all the time, trying to others around me close so they dont push me away like the rest, i'm sick of being a reject...and i really do feel, like i'm going to break...sorry but i'm so low i cant go any lower....

[scaredofme]

I'm so sorry you are feeling so low, sweetie.

I think, maybe now is a good time to start being honest with yourself. It is ok to admit you aren't fine, let your boyfriend be there for you, let your family look after themselves for a while. For now, you should be your priority.

Maybe, as for telling your boyfriend about your past trauma, you could write him a letter or email? I always find it is much easier to be honest, when not face to face.

Maybe you could also see a doctor about how you are feeling?

Stay safe, and PM me whenever,

Laura xx

[XjustxanotherxgirlX]

i'm not sure...i had a row with him literally after i posted that thread...about my current feelings...i just feel like i am failing him so much

[Stellata]

*reaches out a hand for you to hold onto*