Triggering (Suicide) - I'm fed up with my generation

[maruchan]

I hate this stupid generation, this year, everything about it.
I've been thinking and I've realized that I would be happy if I was born in the 60's. I love the 60-80's And I am making myself miserable thinking about it all.
I hate my life. But it's not what's going in my life, it's simply because I don't like life in general. I don't laugh at anything anymore (I'm usually quite a chatterbox!) and I don't enjoy things anymore. I can't look my best friend in the eye because we've been having tension between us (She's two-faced and a hypocrite, and I've been 'ignoring her') and I feel that I'm guilty when I'm not.
I've been feeling mildly depressed for a few months, but now it's hitting with full force. I want to die because I don't find life worth it. I can handle a lot of stuff, but I just don't think it's all worth it, living. What's the point?
And nobody really understands me (I bet you've heard that a lot) but they honestly don't. They think that here's a stupid little girl who wants attention. I feel horrible and I find life useless.

[joyous broken thing]

sorry to hear that you're going through a rough time right now. as these thoughts and feelings have been there for quite a while, i would definitely suggest going to see a counselor or your gp, getting help may seem scary but it really can help.
what made you feel like this orignially? perhaps understanding the origins of these feelings may be the key to resolving them?
i am sad to hear that you don't feel like you have the support of your best friend, is there anyone else you could talk to about this?
i'm around,so don't hesitate to pm me
anne x

[klo_flo]

Maruchan,

It does sound as though things have got pretty full on for you at the moment and I can understand why it would leave you feeling so desperate and thoughts of ending your life.

You asked what the point of living is and this is somethign that is down to you - your personal reasons. Too often do people just a find a reason to live through others, when you are here for you first and foremost. What do you want to do with your life?

When you said that no-body really understands you... what do you want them to understand? Let *us* try.

Chloe x

[maruchan]

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Originally Posted by joyous broken thing

sorry to hear that you're going through a rough time right now. as these thoughts and feelings have been there for quite a while, i would definitely suggest going to see a counselor or your gp, getting help may seem scary but it really can help.
what made you feel like this orignially? perhaps understanding the origins of these feelings may be the key to resolving them?
i am sad to hear that you don't feel like you have the support of your best friend, is there anyone else you could talk to about this?
i'm around,so don't hesitate to pm me
anne x

For years now, I've been thinking very morbidly on the meaning of existence. While other girls would think about Hannah Montana and boyfriends, I thought about death and the meaning of everything. I honestly believe that I was born in the wrong generation; I'm not up to the bold sex talk, the disrespect, and the fact that people like to hear about things that hurt others. I love nature and I hate the fact that humans waste so much. Just thinking about that depresses me and the ups and downs of life affect that, also.
I have a friend that I've been on the internet with for over a year, and she has tremendously helped me, but it works better if you can talk to someone in person, you know?

Thank you for your help :)

[maruchan]

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Originally Posted by klo_flo

Maruchan,

It does sound as though things have got pretty full on for you at the moment and I can understand why it would leave you feeling so desperate and thoughts of ending your life.

You asked what the point of living is and this is somethign that is down to you - your personal reasons. Too often do people just a find a reason to live through others, when you are here for you first and foremost. What do you want to do with your life?

When you said that no-body really understands you... what do you want them to understand? Let *us* try.

Chloe x

I want to become an artist and musician. But that doesn't seem to be enough for me; I want to know why we live, why everything lives! It just seems so pointless to me, working your whole life, then throwing it all away by dying. Why not die now? Surely the lack of humans would help the world!

I just want people to understand that I'm not one of those people that fake being depressed. I want people to understand that I need help, but even through all of that, I am a wonderful, thoughtful person.

Thanks for your help.