Heya there *cuddles you* Im really sorry that your struggling so much. Well done for the huge amount of effort that you have put into staying free form self harm for so long thats excellent! Can you talk to us some more about why it is you want to die? Whats making you want to die? Please dont give up you can beat this and this is not something that you will have to go through on your own, because we are all here for you. We will make sure we all do our best to support you for as long as you need it. How long have you had these feelings of wanting to die for? Can you talk to us about what it is thats making you want to harm yourself? Do you have any support at all? Alot of the time talking helps, its much better to talk about things than keeping everything bottled up inside you, although i do know how difficult it can be to talk about different things.
Please try to keep yourself distracted as much as you posibly can, there are lots of different things you can do to keep yourself distracted, such as posting on the fun and distractions forum, listening to music, doing jobs to keep yourself busy, watching a movie, going for a walk, or writing down your thoughts and feeelings. Perhaps if you find it would help you, you could try keeping a regularly up to date diary of your thoughts and feelings? This link also has lots of other distractions that you could try
http://www.recoveryourlife.com/forum...ead.php?t=1403 i hope that this link i have given you is of some help to you. Please take it easy, its important that you look after yourself, take things in small steps a day at a time. Please keep talking to us.
Take care best wishes Ian xxxxxxxx
