Triggering (Sexual Abuse) - Please make him go away.

[Twist89]

I can not sleep at all tonight. Every time I close my eyes I see him there. I can feel him on me his hands his breath everything. It makes me feel so sick. I just want it to stop now and go away. I can't take it anymore. Please someone make it go away. Please.

[oderint_dum_metuant]

if i knew i would first make my nightmare god go away and then tell you but i don't and it sucks for the both of us

[PlayingForKeeps]

hey hon. im goin through the same thing right now. i don't know how to make him go away. but i do know that im here for you. you can pm me if you wanna chat with someone. ill be up for a while. *hugs*
it will be morning in a bit. you will make it through.
lauren

[lydia.]

Heya,
Remember the dreams are not real chick, he can't hurt you.
Maybe it would help to talk about what happened. Does anyone know at all? We're always here if you need someone.
I hope you're feeling a bit better now.
*squishes*

[Twist89]

I stayed up all night watching tv I can't bare to sleep anymore. I don't know how I have managed to stay up for 62hours without passing out. No1 knows except the people on here that have read this and a few others I have spoken to. He's on holiday atm he will be back in a few days. I know hes coming back for me and thats making me so scared. I can't tell. i'm too dirty to tell. What would my mum think of me then! I just can't seem to wash him off of me. The dreams arnt real but he is and hell be back soon and he will hurt me. I dont want to be here anymore, I want ti fly away, I want to be free.

[starting_over]

hi twist,
i can totally relate to how you feel. i was sexually abused from th etime i was three until i was 24, by many diffrent people. i know how the nightmares feel and how not sleeping feels. i noticed the pic of your twins, i myself have twins also and i know how hard it can be to manage your hurts and fears and losses, and abuses, aand still try to care for the kids. i want you know to know that i care and that suicide is not the answer to this. i do not know the whole story so i can not say anything about your fear of him coming back since i do not know if this is a realationship abuse, or random. please hang in there for those two beautiful babies.

[perfection is a flaw]

hey millie, :D
you really need to tell someone about this hun, you dont have to put up with it. youre not dirty, he is , hes sick. and you dont have to put up with it. im sure your mum wont judge you. because youve done nothing wrong.
as for the dreams well i get them too and i dont know how to make them go away either.
*squishes*
take care
x x x

[Twist89]

Reply to starting over. I would have in there for those twins but they have gone to heaven. I'm only 17 and I have three other children. Twin girls and a little boy. All results of abuse. I lvoe them to bits and thats the only reason I am still here. I'm determinded not to give up. And when my big brother comes to visit me today. I think I might tell him everything. Thank you for all the help xxxx

[perfection is a flaw]

aww hun theyre great reasons to hold on for, if theyre as gorgeous as your twins in your avatar youre very lucky. good luck with telling your brother
x x x