Triggering (OD) - Texting my counsellor?

xbeckyx · 13-04-2008, 05:22 PM

Okay I'm really sturggling at the moment and close to ODing. Last time I felt like this I ended up in hosp and I'm trying not to end up back in A&E.
My counsellor said I could text him whenever I needed to but I'm crap on phones and get nervous even texting people I don't know very well, any ideas on what I could say to him? Thanks

deadstar · 13-04-2008, 05:31 PM

Hey sweetie

Could you text him saying something like you are feeling unsafe at the moment or something along those lines?

I know talking on phones can be really difficult but you have to remember that counscellors are trained to talk so he will know what to say to you without it feeling awkward.

Please stay safe hun- could you get yourself to A&E before you took anything? they could keep you safe there until you feel a bit better and i promise you that they would be alot happier if you went before an OD rather than possibly seriously ill afterwards.

*massive hugs*, i'm always here if you want to talk xxxx

xbeckyx · 13-04-2008, 05:39 PM

Thank you for replying.
It's just he must see people so much worse than me, why should I take up his time? I don't wanna sound over dramatic or anything either.
I can't get to A&E, no money to get a bus and no other way to get there. My mate is coming round soon cos I told her I was feeling crappy but she can't stay all night can she so I dunno. Maybe just having company will help.
My dads out for a bit then I think he's off out tonight but even if he isn't him being at home won't stop me if I do it. I did it last time when he was home and ended up waking him at 2am to take me to hosp.
I just hate not feeling safe from myself.

Stellata · 13-04-2008, 05:51 PM

What's upsetting you?

deadstar · 13-04-2008, 05:52 PM

*Huge hugs* sweetie

Your counscellor is there for when you need him and it sounds alot as though you need him now- i swear you wouldn't be wasting his time, especially as he has told you before to text him if you need him.

Could you ask your mate to stay over tonight? You wouldn't have to tell her it's because you think you might OD, you could always just say you wanted someone to watch some dvds with or something.

Hun, if you get to the point where you ar feeling as though you are about to OD, i am sure your dad would be so much happier if you ask him to take you to A&E before ODing than afterwards.

Please take care
xxxx

x-dying-inside-x · 13-04-2008, 07:27 PM

hunny if he didnt want you to text him when you needed him he wouldnt have given you his number would he.
please text him an tell him your not doing so good.
xxx

xbeckyx · 13-04-2008, 08:43 PM

I texted him and tbh he didn't help much. I told him I had tabs and he suggested giving them to my dad or my mate but I told him I can't bring myself to do it even tho I know I should. That was about it, he just said it sounds like I'm having a rough time and to text him if I need to next week. What use is that?
My mates just gone home, she offered to take some or all of teh tabs for me but I said no. She seemed really worried and I feel bad for putting her in that position.
I would ask my dad to take me to A&E but there's no point, he'd just throw my tabs out and that'd be it, there's nothing they could do there that he couldn't do here really.
I'm sorry I just I don't know what to do anymore. I know if I do it that there'll be a huge fuss made again and I don't want that but I just need everything to be quiet in my head for a while, for all the thoughts of sui to go and how much I disgust myself.

Stellata · 14-04-2008, 07:59 AM

How are you doing this morning?

Your counsellor cannot stop you from doing anything to yourself - he can care, however, and remind you of other resources available - which is why a and e is there.