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Don't Know What To Think/Do
Ok so I've liked this guy for quite some time, and I found out last night he likes me back. Which was wonderful because he's just the way I am, he's a cutter and we've helped each other through quite a bit.
Tonight I was over at his house playing videogames with him and my best friend, at one point he decided to start showing me all of his "tools" that he had, which right from the start kind of got to me, but I thought "Since we're both trying to stop, maybe this will help him.." My best friend is fully recovered at this point and supports me in everything, so she didn't mind much either. The last thing he showed me were two small blades that you pull out of a razor, my best friend was playing a game at the time, so it was pretty much just me and him. He was going on about how small and thin they were, and he ran one across my upper arm, and next thing I knew I was bleeding. I didn't even feel it, probably because I was shocked.
I know he didn't mean to, but then he tried to play it off and said "Ahh, I'm sorry! Well look at it this way, tonight I did it for you!" then he goes "Ok look, I'll do it to, and it's the same size and everything" At that point my best friend got up and walked out of the room. He tried to play it off like nothing happened...and I kept bleeding.
Luckily, it was time for us to go home, so we went upstairs and he got me a bandaide which he insisted on putting on. On the car ride home I didn't say a word and sat there ridgidly, I jumped out of the car when we got to my house and now I don't have any idea what I should do.
I know he's someone I can trust, or at least I think he is, I know it was an accident, but still....I can't tell any of our other friends what happened because they'd freak out.....what on earth do I do?
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