Triggering (Sexual Abuse) - he was there

this morning. on my way to work. he was there. he sat next to me. he was touching me the whole trip. i could feel his leg against mine. i felt sick. i feel sick. the places he touch. places that hurt for days after, winced at his presence. my stomach, knotted and threatened to convulse. my throat, tightened. panic wrapped itself around my heart.
he was right there. and i couldnt get away.
im still shaking. my head hurts. i need some painkillers.
today was going to be a good day.
now, i just want to bathe. soak myself in water that threatens to cook my skin. scrub myself where he was pressed against me until the tainted skin is removed.
today isnt good anymore.

[pea soup]

i dont know what else to say except im really sorry.
i know what its like sitting next to "the" person....all the while you just want to run away.
just sorry.
much love.
xx

[Ileana]

Wow, I'm sorry. I can imagine how horrible that must be, I've been in that situation before.
Sorry.

[Amaryllis]

Don't scrub too much. You need your skin. It's YOURS.

[blacktyrtle]

Thats awful, I'm sorry. Sometimes a good long bath or shower helps make that dirty, tainted feeling ease up a bit. I hope that you feel better soon.

[HappyFeet]

I'm sorry. I've never been in that situation (though touching random people has made me feel dirty). Is there anything you could do that would make you feel like you took back control? Wish I could help.

im going to go home
and have a bath
but i cant leave for over two hours
and i still feel yuck
still feel ill

[Merc]

Just wondering ho wyou are luv?
I'm so sorry
here if you want
luv
romp

im fine now :)