Not towards myself, but towards others. For tomorrow. I have two avenues I could go down. I will do it tomorrow and I will not be discovered.
I don't know why I am telling you this tbh. I suppose I just want someone to know in case I disappear.
Its more of something I've been instructed to do than something I decided to do myself.
Last edited by Steel Maiden : 12-04-2008 at 11:01 PM.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
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Hi. This may not make any difference, but I hope you don't do it. I hope that you are alright, is there anyone you can turn to to help with what your going through? there are numbers you can call too if your feeling like this, i dont know where you are though so i don't know what they are.
why do u want to do it? If someone is hurting you, please tell someone, there are people who can help. This is not your only option. It may not even do any good, and it will probably hurt you too. can you tell us what is wrong? maybe we can help.
pm me if u want to talk.
take care.
"I gave up yesterday but they still want more"
"if you say this life ain't good enough, I would give my world to lift you up"
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
i think that people are doing their best to understand you and want you to know that we are here for you.It may not seem like much right now but i think there are a lot of us here who want to offer you our support right now.
Please keep battling and talking to us when you can.I know its hard.
I will come back online tomorrow morning, hopefully.
I am going to sleep now, seriously. Ok. I have to psych myself up for tomorrow's task.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
Please come back and talk to us in the morning.
There are other ways than carrying out this plan.
I'm here for you if you need to talk.
Jo xxx
"Because you don't notice the light without a bit of shadow. Everything has both dark and light. You have to play with it until you get it exactly right."
My RYL family:
I-used-to-be-positive is my big sister razorxkissedxwrists is my mommy alyssa.star is my sister phoenixflames_forever is my cousin concreteangel, helpmydeath, xxbeckyxx and queer fringe are my little sisters bob--says--hi is my twin
The devil hasn't come to to me yet, as I've just woken up. But her punishment, if I don't do this, is so severe that I am petrified not to carry this out. I don't especially want to carry it out, but I don't have a choice. The devil is petrifying.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
You do have a choice. The devil is the dark place in your unconscious. That can't hurt you. It's ok. Nothing bad will happen if you don't carry it out.
Rather, the consequences for you will be devastating if you do carry out this.
I won't do this. I called the crisis line and they helped. She isn't real. I have to keep telling myself this. The devil is not real. Even though she appears so real to me. She is not real. She can't do anything to me. I can get through this. I can stop myself from carrying this out.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
I won't do this. I called the crisis line and they helped. She isn't real. I have to keep telling myself this. The devil is not real. Even though she appears so real to me. She is not real. She can't do anything to me. I can get through this. I can stop myself from carrying this out.
Well Done, you are doing so well fighting this, I'm really proud of you. xxxxx
-“And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful than the risk it took to bloom.” Anais Nin-
Allie, Mutt, Great Grandma, Hope and Humbug. I love you and miss you all. xx
Ah thank you =)
I feel a bit better now, but I am scared that now the devil's calmed down, what will come next?
I have to think about what to tell the HTT.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
I will do that, definitely. This mental craziness has to stop before it kills me or someone else.
PM me if you want a PDF copy of the ICD-10or the Mental Health Act 1983/2007. I ALSO HAVE THE DSM-V BOOK and am a pharmacology student.
I have a visual impairment / neurological problems so I need people to type in clear text and no funny fonts. Also excuse any typos, my vision blocks things out.
I have autism and have problems communicating, PMs included.
Just becasue I type well doesn't mean I speak well. I am only part time verbal.
