Triggering (SI) - the worse i feel...

[pebbles]

the worse i feel and the more i cut myself, the easier i find it to lie to the people i care about, about the way im feeling.
i dnt feel like i can tell them how im really feeling cos last time i did they put pressure on me to stop and i felt really guilty, like i didnt hate myself enough.
i just dnt really no what to do about all this, so sum outside perspectives would be good.

[Too Shy]

I don't really know what to say atm, so this is a rubbish reply, sorry. All I really want to say is that I don't think you'll really be able to stop unless you're ready to do it for yourself, not anyone else.

What I will also say is that you don't deserve to feel like you hate yourself, you don't need to hate yourself, so please try not to feel like you have to. Don't be too hard on yourself (easier said than done, I know, sorry!)

Anyway, take care of yourself - and try and stay safe. :)

xx

[RosemaryG17]

Talk to them, tell you want to stop and you want help but you don't want the pressure they put on you because that will just make it worse, tell them it's going to take time, and it doesn't stop overnight but they have to able to support you instead of getting angry when you slip up

[taintedangel22]

hun youve just got to be try and be brave for yourself, its hard but worth it in th long run!

its awful when you trust people enough to tell them but it doesnt work out how you planned!
as for the lying, dont worry about it, your not doin it to hurt them, infact quite the opposite, its not a problem honest!

most importantly just try to focus on being strong, you can get through it remember!!!!

chin up,
PM me if youd like
katy
x

[craola]

It sounds like you're stuck in a circle hun, you need to try to break it.
If you wont talk to your friends and family maybe you could talk to your gp or someone you trust? Otherwise could you try writing it down? Maybe as a letter or just as random thoughts as they enter your mind. Then maybe you could give it to your parents or to a friend and you could help them understand that you're not just cutting yourself, that theres a reason and that you need support.
Take care
Aimee xx

[jlc2010]

maybe u could try and talk 2 someone other than ur friends. but, if u want my opinion, the only person that can stop u from cutting is u. u dont hav to stop just cuz ur friends pressure u. they should understand how hard it is. they should understand ur emotions and how addicting cutting can b. but still, u need support if u wanna stop cutting, not pressure.