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Feel like I can't trust anyone - Kinda long
Ok so this probably wont make sense and just sound stupid but I need to talk to someone about it and don't really have anyone around me that I can. Also sorry it's soo long
So the story goes something like this: Last friday I was round a mates with my boyfriend and his mate Dan was there. I've found that whenever we are at my mates and Dan is there he will change towards me and spend the whole night winding me up. I was extremely tired and in no mood for it so as he started kept telling him to leave it and leave me alone and get on with things but he wouldn't. He kept on to the point where I snapped and ended up shouting at him to leave me the f*ck alone as he is just making my mood worse and really starting to piss me off and not to bother talking to me.
Not long after me and my bf went home, a few hours later Dan came home and as he walked past our room said one day I will be a real person and say things to his face. I'm lying in bed wondering what the hell he was on about and realise my mate must have said something to him. I've asked her and she did but neither of her think it was anything bad and he shouldn't of said that. I would say to him what I said to her. I personally don't see anything wrong with what I said about him being different, it's an observation and we were just talking about people in general. So anyway me and Dan haven't spoken since last Friday and I spent last weekend not wanting to be in the same room as him and crying.
On the same night my bf got was texting his mate and she asked why I hated her. I have never met the girl, never spoken to anyone about her and don't have any feelings towards her. Anyways on facebook she called said to me 'u sad cow, u shouldn't be worried' I sent her a message basically asking what am I supposedly worried about and why also asked her why she though I hated her. I got a reply which was nasty but very patronising.
I've spoken to my bf about both of the issues above and he just doesn't seem to get why it's upset me. I can't be arsed with people bitching about me, making crap up. I've had it all through school and dont need it any more. Since last Friday I've cried every night felt like crap when I've been at home and feel like I dont wanna be there despite the fact we only moved into the place a month ago.
I'm feeling so confused and don't know what to do but don't feel like I can talk to anyone about it with out it getting turned into gossip.
Any advice? Thats if anyone could actually be bothered to read all that!! If you did thanks :) Just feeling so crap and down at the moment.
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