so here i am, yet again, 3 AM, tired s hell, like barely keep my eyes open (this is taking forever to type so its reaable)
just co i ant one more drink
but
one turns into three etc
i cant stop doing it.
first i had my shouker to blame it on..but not o mu snymore
i jutw ant to drink.
I KNOW i have a probelm
i dotn beluiive im n 'true' alcoholis as i can quit with litle (VERY lil) SE's
I just cant seem to stop tho...
i sty uo till 3-4 (o alter? earler?) just sio i can drink
i KNOW thic is not good
so the obviou hoice would be,,,get some help.
BUT
i int affecing my work a( im off for MI resns)ive never been arrestd for it
if we dint have the mny i can go w/out, tho it ist pleasant.
Lately ive been spending the days witing till can rink , till it is 'proper'
I tried rehb but they insisted i had to go off my benzos; one id for aniety,,ok, im in a strange place, new ppl, etc and they an to take away my AA's o.O
So i left that aame day.
Problem is...
i dont WANT to quit
it isnt ausing orikem in mym life altho i must be honest and say my deporession was WAY less w/outbooze.
****...
i dont even know if i was asking anything o what...sory to have wasted you r timre'
romp
sorry forgot i had same sort of post up...should hve jusr=tm added...now i don know how to do that...so sorry..
HA i did it yay me patheti drunk
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