idk what to do..*TRIG??* (doubt).PLEASE HELP...

[Merc]

not sur what to do... PLS ANY HELP??? *trig*?


Ok things have NOT ben as rosy as they have appeared lately. i had about 10 days worth if happy, then CRASH, back to life of hell, wreckedness. Maybe there is more tio the BiP II?
The problem is , my hubby is getting that really ezxhausted look in his eyes again, just cos everytime i crash, its worse thn the last time.
I MAY be able to get back into the residential i was in before, im not sure...and im in the stage where i cnt be bothered to pu the phone and find out.
I cant get myself to do anything.
If i go it would be a big relief on my hunbby, he will know i'm safe, it will help my drining as it its getting out of congtrol again, and their will be so much more laughter in this house again.
On the other hand, i have to leave my daughter[she is old enough to understand and that i need this] (i can call/she call, anytime so that helps), BUT then my huby will be doing EVERYTHING...he feels overwhelmed now..just wait; up at 5.30 AM, leave at 6 AM, work anywhere from 5 to 7 THEN come home , chk daughters homework, how was her day etc and cook dinner, make lunches and clean up....but now reading that over the only thing he doesnt do is make luches.My daughter makes her own and dad's too. He has been doing alllll he laundry, most of the cooking, the cleaning.....so i guess it wouldnt be very different would it???
But
i would miss him.
And im terrfied the first day or so...i hide i my room. There are doc and nurses, nurses 24/7; a psych once day. I think i want to go, but i just dont know...and i dont know what is stopping the decision either........
pls help? I know i need this, to be away, and vice versa for hubby...but...im scared.
romp

[Pomegranate]

I know you are scared Romp but you have made an amazingly strong and wonderful step getting help. You said you don't want your husband to do everything, but he is now, well, when you come out of the hospital just think what you will be able to do for him and your daughter. You and your family deserve your happiness. Stop thinking of the reasons why not and putting yourself down. I know it is hard but focus they way this could enrich and improve your life. Could you ask your husband to make the call?

I don't mean to sound lectury, I just don't know how to reassure you, and I wish I did. Truth is, I think there will always be doubts when someone makes a big decision but if there weren't and there were no risks involved, would it really be worth doing? xxxx

[Merc]

you are right...i'll call tomorrow as no one is there that can answer my question...
thanks hun, you make alot of sense
romp

[pea soup]

i think youre making the right decision romp.
and i think youre being very very responsible.
love you girly.
xxxxxxxxxxxx

[blondiebear]

Give yourself the gift of healing
Hugs

[Casper_Fading]

As blondie says. I think you should do it. I think you should go dear. Listen to yourself! You KNOW you need this. YOu know how important it is. You know it will help. Please, do this. Look past the fear to the future.

[Tears of Solitude]

Honey,

Im here for you now. Although I am lost for words. If you think it will keep you safe, it can only be a good thing.

I want you to do anything that will be good for you and your family. I know I will miss you but to know that your are safe and getting better, will be a good thing.

Sending you my love

Jade xxx