Triggering (SI) - my mother....

[scarred07]

trying to be on the path to recovery... new meds, new therapist (and let me just say kudos to her for helping me figure out what started this at the not so tender age of six) and yesterday i called my step dad at 9am to wish him happy bday and he says "i guess i'll see you at the pizza place at 6:30??" eh? my invite musta got lost in the mail. i get a text from my "golden" sister at noon saying that i'm going to have to entertain "mother" until she gets there. i play stupid like "entertain her for what? what are you talking about?" only to find out that my whole entire "family" got together on sunday but SURPRISE SURPRISE no one remembered little ole me. am i full of self pity? all i can think is that once again my sister was in the spotlight and i am nothing. hate to admit it but i took it out on myself and that was wrong and stupid. i keep listening to blue october's hate me. that is my mother. the odd thing is that when she called me at 5:09pm to let me in on the bday party that started at 6:30 she said "this is your mother. it's monday evening at 5:00ish or so. wanted to make sure your medication change was working and you were keeping your appointments. oh and by the way your step dad's party is in an hour. sorry i was distracted and forgot to call." i have a great therapist who supports me and guides me but how can i shrug this shit off? i'm sick of it. my husband is ready to call my wonderful mother and let her know how she affects me. should i let him???:indi fferent:

[kjeorhrny]

Awww, hun, I'm sorry about this mess. I have a feeling that you're going to make it through this ok though. You seem to have a pretty good grip on reality. If you can, try to just wait until tomorrow and hopefully some good news will come up or something.

Hold on, you can do it. You're lucky to have such a supportive husband hanging around. Just try to keep him under control, too. :)

[Bleeding Angel]

Its your choice if you let your mother know how it affects you, in some ways its good because it gets it all out in the open, and you let your family know how you feel and how what they do affects you. You have to think long and hard if you want her to know.

Im sorry you had such a bad day, but things will get better with time, just hold on *hugs*

[craola]

Im sorry things went all wrong, things quite often get forgotten when parties come into play.
If your mother is causing you so much stress and anxiety then maybe it would be a good idea to get things out in the open. If she was the one who helped you sort out therapists and helped you to work out what started your problems then she is probably very unaware of how she is making you feel. Maybe you and your mum, and your husband if he gives you more confidence, should sit down and talk about it. You can explaion how she makes you feel and you could work out ways you could get more support and ease the stress.
Hope you're ok,
take care
Aimee xx