Is it possible to have depression, but not want to die? i mean i have all the other symptoms of depression, but im not sure if i really wanna die. i mean i just want to disappear from the world and not live, but not die, not the actual act of dying, you know what i mean?? does it mean that im recovered?? i mean i feel bad almost all the time and don't have interest to do anything etc, but i don't want to die. what does it mean? im really confused. i have started meds almost 3 weeks ago and i have been feeling that way (to not actually want to die) for almost a week. is it possible??
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it is definately possible - depression is not about whether or not you are suicidal, there are varying degrees of depression. just because you dont feel suicidal (which is fantastic by the way =] ) doesnt mean that you're not struggling, or that you dont deserve as much help and support as everyone else.
I hope something in that made sense.. xx
its not that im not suicidal, but i don't want to die. but i don't want to live anymore. does that make sense?
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I'm the same. You feel like you just want to shut down and start again but you dont want to die - either coz its too scary or you have people you dont want to upset. I want to stop everything but i couldnt stand causing that kind of pain to my bloke.
Thought I oughta bare my naked feelings
Thought I oughta tear the curtain down
I held the blade in trembling hands
Prepared to make it but just then the phone rang
I never had the nerve to make the final cut
I think it's one of the main reasons that people don't seek help sooner, the fact that people think you have to be suicidal to be depressed. You really don't. You can be depressed but still want to fight.
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Omg thanks guys.u r right. I want to shut down and start again. Im a bit scared to die actually and i dont want to upset other people.im glad im not alone!
My RYL family:
I-used-to-be-positive is my big sister razorxkissedxwrists is my mommy alyssa.star is my sister phoenixflames_forever is my cousin concreteangel, helpmydeath, xxbeckyxx and queer fringe are my little sisters bob--says--hi is my twin
severe depression is only if you are suicidal? if you aren't suicidal you aren't severely depressed? im just wondering.
My RYL family:
I-used-to-be-positive is my big sister razorxkissedxwrists is my mommy alyssa.star is my sister phoenixflames_forever is my cousin concreteangel, helpmydeath, xxbeckyxx and queer fringe are my little sisters bob--says--hi is my twin
i started meds almost 3 weeks ago and before starting them i was suicidal and planning to die, but after starting them i don't feel like dying, but disappearing from the world.
My RYL family:
I-used-to-be-positive is my big sister razorxkissedxwrists is my mommy alyssa.star is my sister phoenixflames_forever is my cousin concreteangel, helpmydeath, xxbeckyxx and queer fringe are my little sisters bob--says--hi is my twin
i started meds almost 3 weeks ago and before starting them i was suicidal and planning to die, but after starting them i don't feel like dying, but disappearing from the world.
[sarcasm]A big step forward![/sarcasm]
In all seriousness: I know what you mean. Sometimes I just wanna vanish into thin air or something. Also I remember reading that ppl who are truly very depressed aren't at risk for suicide at all. Why you ask? Because they are so down in the dumps they don't feel like doing anything at all. Like eating, talking, making plans to kill oneself. (well not eating will eventually kill you too but you get what I mean). So some ppl have this theory that when those ppl actually experience a lift in their mood it's when they get dangerous (for example when the antidepressants kick in) because then they have the energy again to plan on stuff, and 'stuff' doesn't necessarily include actions to make your life better...
When I went through a dip into more severe depression a couple of weeks ago, I felt too depressed, exhausted, sad, despairing to even want to hurt myself, never mind suicidal thoughts. It was all I could do to just lie there, feeling tearful and drained of energy. But there have been periods when I go through suicidal thoughts - but actually more when I'm severely anxious, rather than depressed.
Omg thanks guys.u r right. I want to shut down and start again. Im a bit scared to die actually and i dont want to upset other people.im glad im not alone!
that's the same as me I don't want to die. i just don't want to live.
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