should i tell them?

[bingie]

I went to my docs about 2 months ago.He put me on Ad's and told me i would start Cognitive Behaviour therapy in a few weeks(coz of my s/h). He then told me to come back if i had any problems.
After 2 weeks of insomnia and drowsiness(yeah really wierd yet horrible) i went back to see him. He told me it was just side effects and to come back later.
In this time a friend at work who has been fed up for a while went to see his dr in a different area. He was booked off for 3 weeks with depression. I feel sorry for him but at the same time i dont find it fair that i get fobbed off and he gets taken out of work and has constant monitering.
Anyways. Yeah so ive been on these meds a month now. And the past few weeks I've been having strange dreams where in them im hallucinating and going crazy. I wake up and have panic attacks.I dont know whether these are the pills or not or whether its my brain just trying to work out my stress.
I guess the horrible thing i want to know is if i tell this my dr will i just get fobbed off again,because pills and waiting for the nhs to hurry up arnt working.If anything im probably worse.

[Stellata]

Could you see a different dr at your practice?
Do work know about your depression?

[bingie]

a few close friends know about it.But if work know it will probably hold me back from moving forward. I told my friend(who happens to be my supervisor) and now instead of asking me if I'll take over an order she passes it over to other people.I've explained that i want more responsiblilty but she doesn't seem to understand.
I've tried looking for other jobs but this doesnt seem to work.I dont think im going to get any help until something seriously bad happens and thats getting closer and closer.

[bitzy]

u should go back 2 ur doc nd tell him that ur still not feelin much better cos he wont know otherwise
im not sure about the panic attacks but i know from experience those weird dreams sometimes come with taking ad's
sometimes i get dreams that are so real nd vivid its scares me nd they are about the weirsest things lol
CBT will help so hang in there
take care xxxx :)

[Stellata]

With work, what I did was write out how my symptoms effect me at work, and what helps - and what I can and can't do. That really helped.

[x-dying-inside-x]

go tell your doctor but dont let them fob you off.
they did that with me and ive got hardly anywhere in the last couple of years.

[bingie]

well i think i need to go see them. yesterday i was so triggered but resisted it coz i had people around me and could only think of my wedding dress. but today ive just snapped coz im back at work and i hate this place. I'm really not doing so good atm.