I'm going insane or something

[x1v16]

I am so....lost. I work at a call center and I've been given 2 written warnings for too many sick days, too many half days, too much time off the phones. One more and I'm fired. I thought for a week that I was reformed, that I could do it again, but today....oh today....I feel like I am given no choice. I'm so messed up inside and all I spew is negativity and I can't keep myself calm enough to do my work. I feel like all I have as an option is to quit. Quit and let down my parents. Quit and go even more insane because i won't have anything to keep me occupied. I don't want to go downhill, I don't want it but no matter how much help I ask for from other people it never changes anything. It calms me down at the time but it always starts up again the next day. Maybe I'm not on the right medication. I've been here for 14 monthes and here I am....on a path to being fired, ending my employment here on such a bad note they won't give me a refence. I hate it...I farking hate it so much...I'm at work writing this because I don't have the guts to tell them I'm not working and have to go home. Advice would be appreciated.

[xXMessedUpXx]

*hugs* sorry thinsg are bad for you right now. Have you told you're work about how you've been feeling? they might be more understanding and might have options for you which mean you dont have to quit? what about with a doctors note, could you take some time off? Just a bit till you feel ready to go back? I kept no-showing at my old job but eventually on night i broke down and told my boss about my depression etc and she was really understanding (the amount of times i should technically have been fired...)

hope you can work things out, but please try and talk to someone before quitting

[Breeze]

Is there a work counsellor? I don't know how big your work place is but bigger call centres have an occupational health dept, maybe speak to them.
Or your boss or someone higher than you and try and explain things to them.

Sorry to hear things are so tough.