Depression with Pychosis?

[alienshe_cheesycake]

I'm on of these people who like to google a lot, and I was googling Depression the other day and I realised that on most sites they don't list Pychosis as a symptom of Depression

Does anybody else have Depression with Pychotic symptoms?
Personally I hear voices when I get really bad and I just totally lose the plot and move into a little world of my own while I try to fight this voice
(It's always telling me to kill myself)
and I end up in hospital because I totally lose control of myself.

But I get annoyed because sometimes I think that the word "Depression" and peoples perceptions of this illness is of somthing, not so bad, or not so de-abilitating. When In reality people have no idea of how much it can affect people or how serious it can be. I think people just don't think about pychosis and depression.

I haven't been given an official diagnosis by the doctors in the hospital (where I am now) but when I asked about this voice they said that they were going to increase the dosage of my anti-depressant (Mirtazapine)
because the pychosis is probably a symptom of my depression.

Has anybody else had any experience of Pychotic Depression?
I do think that there isn't much awareness of pychosis and depression, I thought that I was going totally crazy or I had schitzophernia <-- can't spell) or somthing.

[Starz*]

yeah, i understand what you're saying.

Its also like how people use the word depressed to describe a bad mood or a shitty day. They dont understand and/or mean depressed as in an illness.
People just dont realise what it is.

I have no experience of depression with psychosis but ive heard of it.

[Katey-lou]

heya, i've had that. i get those symptoms too. i got so scared when it first started i wasnt really bad then. but as i got more depressed it got worse. i dont fully remebr the times i was really bad. but i have been told i had a number of psychotic episodes. i thought i was crazy but then i was told it was a symptom it doesnt mean you have schizophenia or n e thing its just a symptom but it can be so scary. i was on mirtazapine aswell, it did help me. but then i was also on an antipsychotic to help clear my mind and stuff.

i nevber knew that it was a symptom of depression and i thoguth they were just trying to use it as an excuse when i tried to tell them about it.

i can totally understand how your feeling when you say people dont fully understand how bad depression can get, its more than just having a down day. it can take over your life. thats why they say you should seek help early dont put it of.

i hope that when they up your meds it helps you a little bit, just kep in mind things can get better (its easier sed than done i know)

And your not going crazy its okx

[D-liscious]

hey hunni,

just wanted to say ive heard of that.
i had a psyciatric assessment and although they didnt give me a definate diagnosis, they did say i was severely depressed and showed signs of psycosis, which were probably linked to the depression, they put me on both an anti depressant and an anti psycotic, which helped the symptoms
but left me really lethargic and tired.

hope this helps

i do agree with you there is not an awareness of this and i hope you feel better and get home soon
*hugs*

[Ami]

i get delusions and paranoia, which i can see arent real, when i stop being depressed and my meds start working x

[tamobhuuta]

my therapist said i do. CAMHS have never seemed to think any of my symptoms important but my mum says that's because the psychiatrist is crazy himself, so it's not that he necessarily thinks depression isn't a problem, just that he thinks i don't have a problem. i do not mind however as perhaps i can persuade him to aid my team in a cunning plan for my own destruction. the team currently consists of me and the voice in my head, so we are rather in need of new members. srsly.

[ThinkingofRecovery]

Hi

I don't hear a voice but I find that my mind gets way too noisy with my own thoughts and yet too quiet at the same time. Is this my depression or is this just me? It's times like these when I end up taking an OD.

[Stellata]

Before I was in treatment and I was very very ill with depression, I bordered on psychosis - for example believing that every physical symptom was a sign of cancer and that I was going to die soon, and hearing occasional voices in my head. But it wasn't full psychosis like you describe here - but awful, even so.

[alienshe_cheesycake]

People on here seem to be more aware of the pychosis involved in Depression, or at least how severe depression can be

It sounds silly, but when my friends ask why I've been in hospital
I feel like if I say, depression, they'll think that I'm being a drama queen
or that I'm just lazy and in hospital for a rest or somthing.

To them, hearing voices or seeing things that aren't there is like somthing (in there minds) associated with more serious mental illnesses.

I think yes, that most people do suffer from mild/moderate depression at some point in there lives,

and don't get me wrong I've suffered from mild depression and it sucks,

but I get annoyed when people who have only ever suffered mild depression tell me that they know exactly how I feel
and because they managed to pull themselves together, I should too.
When in reality they have no idea how I feel because the depression they were suffering was nowhere near as severe or deabilitating as mine is.

It's very scary anyway and my doctor isn't putting me on any anti-pychotics, but I don't think I need one anyway, because this voice is so random and only usually turns up when I'm really really bad with my depression.

[Katey-lou]

hey, yeah i think those whoce been thorugh or had expericne of it tend to understand things a little better but ive had friends )who dont kno the full reasons behind everything but knew i was in hospital for depression) turn round and say ah just coem out we'll cheer you up you'l b fien and i sit there thinking y4eah if it was that easy i'd be right out there with you. i did get annoyed in shoital once though, actually very vyer annoyed and upset wen a nurse did a discussion group and sed that a lot of people experience depression, wich ok i kno is fair enough comment. but then went on to say thats its easy to move on. you need to pull yoursel together motivate yourself and get over it!!!!! we tried saying yeah thats a lot easier sed than done, but she had her 'mental health awareness book' with her and thats what it sed in it so thats wot must happen (we called her the textbook theory nurse!!!) she had no idea, even though she worked on the ward. depression can take over your life, it can be debilitating and people dont understnad that. but i hate it wen people whove had the odd bad day tell me they understnad how am feeling. i just look at them and think yeah is you really knew you wouldnt be saying that!


as for the voices you hear, are you on antidperessants?? if you are and the voices only come wen your suffering really badly with it, maybe its a good idea about not going onto the anti-psychotics. but hopefully by trying to treat the depression the voices may ease of and hopefully go with time. i know thats not much help because yes it is very scary. xx