Triggering (SI) - I have the best doctor

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So I finally got to see my doctor today and he took one look at my 'cut from the shelf' and said "tell me the truth" so I did and he looked so sad for me. I told him how angry I was at myself and he said he wasn't angry just sorry that I thought ringing him up and demanding to speak to him was rude and bothering him... We're gonna organise so that I can ring him any time and get through. I told him about the lady i've been seeing who's been giving me death stares and who I KNOW isn't really there and he asked when I see her and stuff and I said it was when I was planning to do what I did. And he asked what my orginal plans were... and I told him that it wasnt to cut where I did and that I didn't plan on stopping him. He thinks that the lady i'm seeing is my subconcious trying to tell me to slow down. The lady is always on a phone... she can't talk to me but maybe it's me trying to make me take note that things aren't good? I agree with him on that. I haven't seen her in a couple days... been 'safe' and relatively calm. The rash i've been getting he thinks is either heat or stress. More likely stress he said beacuse it just flared up when we were there! Itwas clear and thenten minutes into talking to him it was all over my arm. And he thinks that i'm making a big step into the 'unknown' for me. I KNOW self harm. I know the 'safety' it provides. I don't know life without it really... or without the option of it. So he thinks that in the next few weeks I have to be very careful and if I see that lady again I need to STOP and try to sit back and relax. So yeah. That was the result of my hour long talk with my doctor today. I'm feeling much more setttled now and things are clearer right now.

Thank you to everyone who read and replied or even just noticed... meant a lot. You guys are my inspiration. Thank you

Jess

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awesome doc!!!!
im happy for you Jess.
my last psychologist and i had a plan where i could reach him at anytime and it helped me ALOT.
im seeing a new doc now because i moved but im getting on very well with him also.
it is really nice to have professionals that actually care.
loves.
xxxxx

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That's so great to hear! Very often we only hear about the negative experiences people have with the medical profession, so it's really nice to hear a positive one. There's a lot of kind, caring doctors out there and yours certainly seems like one of them. I'm really glad for you. It's great that you have that support there for when you need it. I really hope it helps you.
Best wishes & take care of yourself. Xx

[chocostashchick]

aww i like your doctor
i want one like him!!
he is very perceptive and i think he is right
it must have felt good to get that all out and have that conversation
it sounds like just from the tone of your post that you are feeling better and that is great Jess!
xxxooo

[dark_light]

Its good to hear something positive about doctors for a change!
I want one!
I think you are doing so well, and i think that when you have used something as a coping stategy and then stop, its always going to come back into your head when things get stressful. I admire you so much for getting to where you are now.
Jo x

[blondiebear]

Your doctor sounds awesome!