Triggering (SI/Suicide) - Hopeless

[Ragdoll]

I'm not coping at the moment and not harming because of the baby isn't helping. I know hormones probably make it worse too.

I hate where I'm living. It's good of Rusty's dad to let us live here but everyone is always grumpy at each other, his brother doesn't speak to us half the time and it just feels awkward. We only have one little room that's ours and it's so cluttered.

I just feel trapped.

Trouble is, today in the car we were driving along and I was thinking 'who cares if we crashed'. Just not caring, because things feel like we're going nowhere anyway. That's an awful thing to think when I'm pregnant I know, but that's just how it felt.

Gonna shut up now anyway, just helpful to get it off my chest.

[chocostashchick]

you are NOT going nowhere sweetie
it sounds like you are pretty low right now - but you have to fight it and know that it isn't true and it's the illness talking
you have Rusty and your baby and where you are living is just a temporary thing
if you crashed, Rusty would care, your family would care, your baby would care, and i for one would care!!!
you don't have to shut up
keep ranting away, it helps (at least me)
keep us updated
xxxooo

[pea soup]

*snuggles*
i totally understand the "who cares if we crash" thought.
and please DONT feel guilty for thinking it because youre pregnant!!!!
we cant control our feelings. they just are what they are. and they are valid.
youre living situation does sound really stressful. i hope you can find a place of your own soon.
i will be keeping you in my thoughts.
much much love.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[bigmouth]

I feel the same way and I'm pregnant too. I just wanted you to know you're not alone, I don't know if that helps.

Look after yourself and the baby, I hope you feel less down soon. I think hormones play a bigger part in how we feel than we may realise. I know for me, I find it hard keeping things in perspective.

Take care