Triggering (Suicide) - I cant trust myself (Triggering suicide triggering)

sweetadeline · 14-03-2008, 03:01 AM

In two days I will be travelling with some people at my school to san fransisco. I am terrified of the golden gate bridge. I see it as a site of suicide, and for me it has this dark quality that I am so intrigued with. I dont trust myself to cross it. I dont trust myself to see it. I am afraid I will lose control of myself, and hurl myself off the edge- I have been feeling more anxious and unstable lately.
I dont trust myself near this bridge. But at the same time I have been looking forward to visiting san fran for so long, I feel like if I dont follow through with this and go, I will be failing.

I dont know if most of this is in my head and I will be fine. or if something is really in danger in me.

Help, what do I do??

All I'm Living For · 14-03-2008, 03:05 AM

since you're going with your school, is there a teacher you can talk to about it? or a friend that you can get to keep an eye on you?

Yuki · 14-03-2008, 03:33 AM

Well, i don't think it's good to go if you're feeling like this. It's possible that you can go and skip out on the bridge part. You can always go back later in life, when you're feeling more up to it. and there's no note of failure, if you're making the mature decision to avoid potential triggers. that's good.

Harmless_Baby · 14-03-2008, 01:08 PM

I feel for you, deeply - I do.
Do go, walk over that bridge! Show yourself you can do it!
But while your walking across - get a friend to hold your hand, to comfort you, to intrruept you from attempting it x

Am thinking of you x

Cazki · 14-03-2008, 11:22 PM

I dont advise you to go if your feeling that you wont be able to walk over the bridge with a friend, if you feel you will be ok with a friend by the side of you then by all means go but i would hate for anything to happen to you. If you are extremly unsafe then then i advise you not to go at all. Obviously its up to you its your choice all we can do is advise you. Hope that helps and that your able to make a decision soon.

Best wishes Ian

Misunderstood. · 16-03-2008, 08:14 AM

i dont think u should miss out on the experience but agree that u should tell someone that u r going with about what u r thinking so they can look after u when u walk over it. u should feel a great sense of achievement if u go and enjoy it as a positive thing rather than a negative such as u r looking at it now..