I'm feeling really low tonight, and I don't even know why. I haven't really got anything in particular to feel bad about, apart from the fact that everyone replies to my posts and yet I never do, which just makes me feel useless because I want to help but i just never know what to say.
And my own scars are really triggering me, but i've got a high temperature so i can't really wear long sleeves so i'm a bit stuck. I've been trying to distract myself for the past hour, but the urge is ridiculously strong for some reason :S
Aaah I can't face school tomorrow, everyones going to be in birmingham and i'm on my own for the entire day. Ugh, i'm just hopeless, I couldn't even get my form in time to go on the trip. Not that i'd have been able to anyway, since i hate coaches because of my STUPID phobia. And its all chocolate so i'll feel even worse when I'm there because i won't want to eat anything.
I don't even know what I'm hoping to achieve by posting this here, its just silly. I'll go away now.
"That is why, for Christ's sake,
I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships,
in persecutions, in difficulties.
For when I am weak, then I am strong"
(2 Corinthians 12:13)
"That is why, for Christ's sake,
I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships,
in persecutions, in difficulties.
For when I am weak, then I am strong"
(2 Corinthians 12:13)
dont feel bad about getting replies or asking for help, you are obviously having a hard time right now and its hard to support other people when you feel bad.
your not hopeless. and phobias arent stupid in any way.
no one would think you were stupid if you were afraid of heights or spiders or small spaces and no one thinks your stupid cuz your scared of coaches.
please post as much as you like, you are not silly or stupid or anything else.
i hope school tomorrow isnt to bad for you and pm me if you want to rant and let it all out or if you just wanna chat to try and distract yourself.
xx
Hiya there im very sorry that your having such a difficult time right now. *Gives you a big hug* Everything will be ok, i know that what your going through isnt easy but it doesnt mean that you cant get through this. Could you talk to us about what it is thats made you feel like this? Do you have any support at all? (If you have one) have you spoken to your counseller how your feeling? Im so sorry for the pain that your going through.
You can get through this please dont give up please keep fighting through this. Things wont be like this forever, things will get better. Be gentle with yourself try not to be too hard on yourself as that will only create problems. We are all here for you and we will support you for as long as you need it. We all care about you so much. I know its incredibly difficult when your feeling really low but we are here to support you ok.
No one wants to see you get hurt anymore than what you already are, that includes me other people here, and your friends and family. I know that things are not good for you now but they wont always be like this. Have you thought about writing down your thoughts and feelings? Its important that if you do decide to write down your thoughts and feelings that you combine both the positive things and the negative things together so that you dont end up writing down just the negative things on there own. Make sure that you keep safe, none of us want to see you get hurt any more than what you already are you dont deserve it.
Please keep distracting yourself as much as you possibly can, there are lots of things that you can try here are some of them, listening to music, doing jobs to keep you busy, watching a movie, going for a walk and posting on the fun and distractions forum. Please keep talking to us, you dont have to go through this all on your own, we are here for you. Please take care its important that you look after yourself.
I understand about the phobias! I had a reaction to a combination of claustraphobia and a phobia of the dark once on a field trip that for the next year they changed the rules! If you want, i posted the story this morning in Vets, "Medical Memories updated"
If you have a high temperature, should you even go to school? Should you see a doctor instead?
My husband is my best friend.
In forgiving others, we are not exonerating them. They may not deserve exoneration. Rather, in forgiving others we are giving up our anger over the fact that what happened is not what "should" have happened or that our life is not the way it "should" have been.
thanks for the replies, they really mean a lot. I haven't been feelng a whole lot better today but I suppose I will eventually. I just wish that I could support other people here as much as you guys support me, and its frustrating when I can't.
I made a special effort to stay positive today, but it ended up feeling like i was just hiding my emotions which i realise is probably not the best idea.
thanks, xxx
"That is why, for Christ's sake,
I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships,
in persecutions, in difficulties.
For when I am weak, then I am strong"
(2 Corinthians 12:13)
please dont get mad at yourself for not being able to support people, maybe when you feel a bit better yourself you will find it easier to do.
im glad your feeling a bit better today =].
well done for trying to stay positve, i know it can be hard.
pm me if you want
xxx
