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[flymetothemoon]

I've sat with the gnawing emptiness
whiling away my time in submission
strangle-held by the thoughts
and the restriction of knowing the truth
and all the while, and all the time
wondering;
what in the world, happened to the world?
this is not right - we're to be punished for being honest?
I'm compelled to lie now, to save myself

self control disappears as hours extend;
is it fate, or destiny, or something much colder?
that hurtful feeling like; you deserve this.
your life is just 'take the blame'
its easier that way by far, better for all
and then it fades after weeks, months
and you're left feeling so empty
as though the time you missed was precious
never.

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my world doesn't sit still.
the clouds are painted green and yellow
and the sky tastes like static.
there's people watching my every movement
every moment
every breath
listening for the tiniest thought
to interpret as a threat or signal
as though they could possibly relate.
no, i feel unrelated from the rest of humanity
and it leaves me cold and lonely,
but full of power, domination and control.