Triggering (SI) - Here we go

[Esh]

I don't know how much time I have left, but I know I'm going to cut myself a lot within the next few weeks.

The only thing that's stoppping me in the world is my short-sleeved uniform at work and the fact I am going on holiday this weekend and will be in a bikini.

That's it. That's all thats keeping me from ruining myself.

I can't change this and I don't know how to help myself, but I am running out of reasons not to very fast.

[idontwantnomorescars]

well look there you go you have two reasons not to hurt yourself.
sorry i cant give you any real advice but i hope that you stay strong and dont hurt yourself. *big hugs* xox

[Esh]

My whole point was that these aren't very good reasons.

Never mind

[DarkElvenPrincess]

I think any reason is a good enough reason when it means not hurting yourself, sweetie.

The only reason when i started trying to stop was so my boyfriend stopped asking awkward questions. And eventually a better reason came along. You have to find reasons where there aren't any, i'm afraid.