Advice needed

xbeckyx · 02-03-2008, 11:11 PM

I want to apologize in advance for however rambling this will get, I'm not really sure what I aim to get out of making this thread I think I just need to get it out.

Last year I started drinking. A lot for someone my age really (15). A bottle of cider a night when I was out pretty much all week for quite a while. I'd do weed if I could get it.
Now I'm sort of managing to cut back on the drinking but I find myself wanting booze through the week. If I can't get drunk (even if it's on my own) I take any tablets I can find, pain killers, sleeping tabs, caffeine, anything. I've got a little stash in my room I just can't bring myself to throw out. The last week I have done solvents every day until I almost pass out, then start again.
A couple of my friends are worried and I know I should be too but I just can't seem to care about how much I could be messing up my body.
I knowI don't have real problems like a lot of people here but I just need somewhere to be able to say this because I could never bring this up with my counsellor. I'm starting to fear being sober or at least not being on anything and start going a bit loopy if I don't have anything to take, I've ended up begging my friend for paracetamol as crap as they are just so I could take something to tide me over til I could get home from school.
I know I need to start regulating myself or cutting down but I'm finding it so hard, any advice please?
Thanks.

blondiebear · 04-03-2008, 04:14 AM

Hiya becky,
it sounds to me like you do have real problems. Wanting to have any kind of pill like you do sounds scary to me.
My advice to you would be to look up the web site for either alcoholics anonymous or narcotics anonymous. They have little cards on the web sites that have 12 or 20 questions that you can ask yourself to see if you have a drinking or substance abuse problem. You don't have to tell anyone or show anyone. Even if you don't want to quit, that's okay. Since you are starting to ask about it, it seems that you are worried.

You're not too young to have problems. I've seen teens in meetings. I saw teens participating on stage at an international aa convention. And the stage was in a baseball stadium!

I'm an alcoholic with 13 years of recovery. I was in denial for months, including the first month of aa meetings I went to. Hope this helps!

If you have any questions or want support or just want to talk, feel free to pm me.
*gives you a hug*

DUNFERMLINEBOY · 04-03-2008, 04:28 AM

Hey Becky,
As Blondiebear says it's not that unusual, but the fact that you're on here asking for help is a brilliant start! There are AA groups, you could also call childline, your local samaritans (they'll be in the phone book) you obviously have a need to talk to someone at length about what's making you feel this way! From what I've heard they're are some pretty good counselling services in the York area! Ask your GP for a referral, or talk to your guidance teacher!

Do me a huge, huge favour though please keep away from the solvents as they are extremely dangerous as is paracetemol!

Let us know how you get on! By the way Blondiebear (Susan) is a great listener!!!

Take Care,

Craig x

xbeckyx · 04-03-2008, 06:37 PM

Thank you for the replies.
I already have a counsellor, in fact I'm seeing him tomorrow but I just don't feel like I can tell him thios, I always end up holding back in sessions with him because I'm still trying to get over being totally honest with people about how I feel.
I've decided to see if I can go a week without any tablets, alcohol or solvents besides when I need them (like paracetamol for a headache) and I'm already finding it hard.
I'll have a look at those questions, thanks blondiebear.