I dont know what's wrong with me.

[Ami]

What is wrong with me? I am spied on, and my every move is watched. Thoughts are jumbled with things i dont know if they are real or not. I thought I killed someone last year. I was driven to hospital because of people telling me they will levae me alone if i did it. They havent. A man follws me and puts thoughts and voices in my head.

When i am "high", i am God. I can control everything and everyone. But things still want to come after me because I am so great.

I am so lost in this world, i cannot concentrate at college. My results will be abismal. I dont know whats real or not. I am on mood stablisers and anti-psychotics that do not work.

Sorry to keep posting but my head is jumbled and screwed and i dont know what i have. And id like a straight answer. I know no-one here can diagnose, but i just need hugs or something xxx

[Tig]

Hi Ami,

I really wish I had answers or something that I can give you but I don't. I just wanted to offer you my support and lots and lots of hugs and love. Don't be sorry for posting, that's what RYL is for and I'm glad you do post.

If you want to talk you can always PM me or add me to msn, I would be happy to chat with you.

Take care lovely,

Lotti x

[dark_light]

*hugs you hon*
i'm glad you are posting here, its good that you are talking about it. we can't tell you whats wrong, i think maybe it could help if you could speak to your doctor, especially if you feel your meds aren't working. Or do you have a cpn or someone you could talk to?

Take care honey,
LOL Jo x

[Ami]

I have no-one yet, but i should be getting reaferred soon. i also am seeing my gp tomorrow. Does anyone know what it sounds a little like, although i know noone can diagnose?
x

[Buttercup.]

It sounds like you might have anxiety problems and bipolar disorder. The only reason I'm saying that is because lots of your symptoms are similar to mine and that's my diagnosis in a nutshell. If you ever need to talk about it with somebody who understands, PM me.

Take care and good luck with your GP tomorrow.

Jess x

[romancandle]

Sounds like Bipolar Disorder to me, big time. I relate to quite a few of the things you say. I have the paranoia of people watching, the "God"-like feeling of invincibility. You need some meds really. Bipolar disorder is an organic brain disorder that can't be treated by therapy being the main treatment. Medication is your ticket out, I'm afraid. Get a good doc, a good therapist, and stick with treatment. It's all that has worked for me.

[Ami]

i am on medication. it is, unfortunitaly not working. I am seieng my dr on thursday to sort things out :/

xx

[*Uv_ragdoll*(Shelley)]

i hope you can sort thingsoput with your \GP xxx much love xx