Triggering (SI) - so close to relapse..

[cobinrapner]

the scissors are right next to me. i want to cut so bad but I haven't cut in over a year. i even have my bracelet...

i love her so much. i want her here all the time. i want her here right now so i don't hurt myself. i can't text her. she'll worry. and then i'll lose another friend over this God damned addiction. but i want her to know how badly i'm hurting over her. and i think she has some what of an idea. i just want to cut so i can feel something else besides this over bearing pain inside. i want it to show on my arms. if i cut once does that count as a slip up or will i have to start all over?

[idontwantnomorescars]

hold in there. i know its hard, i'm sorry i cant offer you anything i'm not doing so great myself. just thought i'd let you know i'm thinking of you and have read your post.

[blondiebear]

As bad as it hurts, i've learned for myself that it doesn't get rid of the pain for very long. I just have remorse and an emotional hangover afterwards. I've learned recently that if you accept the pain and flow with it, that is the quickest way though it.