Im so messed up. everything i do is messed up. everything i say is messed up.
I just want to die. I wish i could just lie down on the floor and die. nobody would notice. Nobody would care.
Im so sorry your in this dark place at the moment, but please stay strong, im sure there are people around you that would miss you if you were to leave them.
Staysafe
*hugs*
I'm really sorry you are feeling like this. But people would miss you even if your friends are tied up they would still miss you if you died. Even here on ryl would miss you if you died. Please don't give up. and do not hestate to pm if you need to talk/support. Take Care L x
“Never lose faith in yourself,
and never lose hope;
remember, even when this world throws its worst and then turns its back,
there is still always hope.”
It sounds like things are feeling a lil bit desperate for you right now. Has anything in particular made you feel this way? Do you have any support from anyone like a counsellor or a doctor?
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
If it would make you feel safe then maybe you should consider going to a ward Raito - it would be a positive thing to do, and you would know that you have support there 24/7, professional help and that would be a good thing.
Is there anyone you can phone at the moment, a crisis line or anything?
Something has changed within me, something is not the same, I'm through with playing by the rules of someone elses game. Too late for second guessing, too late to go back to sleep, its time to trust my instincts, close my eyes and leap....
Somethings I cannot change, but till I try I'll never know...
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Big hugs to all my friends on here, thanks for your constant support - love you guys
yes, maybe u do need to be in a psych ward, so would have ppl around 24/7 to talk to and keep u safe and make sure u didnt try anything. u wont feel like this permanantly, nothing lasts forever. please hang in there and get some help - pm if u like.
the only problem with a psyc ward is that i would have to tell my parents about everything, and i dont really want to. but if its the right thing to do i may well have to.
Just be honist with him, you dont have to tell him everything, just enough so he understands the situation your in.
Psyc wards im not sure for you, but here in aus we have cat teams, there after hours people you can turn to when your at your worst an they decided weather you need hospitalation or not, is there something like that for you??
Have you got a GP or counsellor? If you do, your best bet would be to tell them whats going on for you right now and then go from there. If they think its the right thing they can refer you onto someone who can make an admission. Or another option would be to go to your local A & E and explain to them how you are feeling and whats going on for you, they will get someone to assess you and then go from there. In regards to telling your dad and everyone else perhaps you could tell them that you are really struggling right now and need some extra support. If face to face is too difficult perhaps you could write them a letter.
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
ive tried. they dont help. i just want to go away for a while and be sumwhere i feel safe, and know that i cant hurt myself. thats why i thought of a psyc ward.
