Triggering (SI/Suicide) - DEAR SELF *triggering SI,OD,suicide*

[xthexasylumxchildx]

err... I feel so helpless and like everyone hates me. Don't you hate me too? Where ever I turn people make fun of me and I feel totally depressed. I recently had a fight with my friend like an hour ago and I feel like cutting.. and overdosing on pills..

then my parents don't get why I am acting so weird. they probably think I am f***ed up. I want to come out to them that I'm bisexual but I noe what their reaction would be! they would totally hate me. and then they'd probably take me to some therapy or crap like that ..i just don't noe what to do anymore. I stopped eating and I took more pain killers... i just feel as if someone should just pluck me out of the face of the world..

I am sorry i wrote this. sorry to cause u pain sorry to be so gawd damn selfish.. but right now i don't feel so well..Try helping me if you can but i think i am to F***ed up to listen.

[Misunderstood.]

i certainly dont hate u,..uv helped on more than one occassion today and im rele grateful. please dont harm urself over the argument, im sure u will make up but i know it feels bad now, stay on here nd try to distract urself,..u can pm me if u want..
as for coming out to ur parents it would be very wrong of them to hate u because of ur sexuality, its part of who u r, and parents should love they're children unconditionally and just want whats best for u and makes u happy..
u certainly dont need therapy for being bisexual if thats what u meant, otherwise i should be in therapy too! how much painkillers have u taken,..and when u say stopped eating do u mean stopped half way thru a meal to take them or u havent been eating for a prolonged amount of time?
i wish i knew how i could help. u arent fucked up darlin, u r just dealing with alot right now. but. if u think coming out to ur parents will do more harm than good, then leave it for now as u have enough to deal with it would seem, atm. i dont know what ur parents r like,..obviously so i guess u r the best judge of that.

pls pls pls be safe. i'll be around a while if u want to message me.

xxxoxxx

[here-for-the-journey]

I don't hate you either sweetheart. I have no reason to hate you and the fact that you are clearly distressed means I love you more *cuddles*
Stay strong baby. You can PM me anytime and I will get back to you asap.

Catherine - you are NOT fat and I think you sound like a wonderfully kind and supportive person *hugs*

[Cazki]

Hello there Just before i continue i I would like to say to the person above i used to be positive (sorry i dont know yur name) that asking someone how many tablets is tipsharing and is againts the rules. Im very sorry to hear that your having such a difficult time right now. Suicide really isnt the answer though. I know that what your going through is incredibly difficult but it doesnt mean that you cant get through this, you dont have to go through this alone we are all here for you we all care about you and we will do our very best to support you for as long as you need it.

Please keep fighting through this please dont give up. Im really sorry for the pain that your going through, you dont deserve this at all. Things wont be like this forever though things will get better for you. Do you have any support at all? Please put the tablets out of the way where you cant see them. Please dont od it causes so much damage and its just really not worth it. Your not f***** up at all. None of us hate you here at all.

It really is up to you if you want to come out to your parents but one thing i will say is that, you have to tell them when your comfortable and the when the time is right for you. If you think that it will cause trouble then dont worry about it for now and wait untill your ready. You must be ready to tell them thats really important. We are all here for we care about you so much and we will do our very best to support you for as long as you need it.

Please try to keep yourself distracted as much as you possibly can. Here are some thigns that you might want to have a think about trying, listening to music, doing jobs to keep you busy, watching a movie, posting on the fun and distractions forum or writing down your thoughts and feelings. Its really important that when you write down your thoughts and feelings that you combine both the positive things with the negative things, so that you dont end up writing down just the negative things on there own as this really wont help you.

Have you thought about going to see your doctor at all? From what i have read in your post it seems like your very deppressed and i think you need help with your deppression before it gets any worse. If your not able to speak to your doctor face to face maybe you could write down what it is that you want to say and give it to your doctor to read. Please take it easy its important that you look after yourself.

Take care best wishes Ian xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

[Misunderstood.]

Avalanche - i was asking as i was worried that vampirekisses had taken too much, it wasn't tip sharing at all.

[here-for-the-journey]

^^^ I know Catherine but Ian is right in the fact that it is against the rules. That short of thing is PM-able only.

[Misunderstood.]

ok sorry; i understand