i really, really wish i had more of what i took before when i od-ed. really. i can't explain it, but i feel exactly like i did then, and i could so easily drink that stuff again if i still had any
i know my therapist said to call her if i feel like doing something like that again, but i dont want to call her. not yet anyway. i havent known her long enough. maybe in a few more weeks id be able to call, but now id just seem too needy and dramatic and crap. plus its saturday night, and i really just dont want to do that to her.
and im sorr yto keep postikng here - i know i dont deserve to when i havent been able to reply to stuff for so long and i keep posting so much - im realy sorry
