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Possibly Triggering - Expression in words
I've been keeping a list on my laptop of basically a bunch of emo phrases. I've put "Possibly Triggering" because some of them relate to suicidal thoughts and self harm. But anyway, here's a big long list:
abandoned
secret #1: i still refer to myself as yours
i never thought this would happen to me
why bother
deranged
manipulate
pain
misery
you always pick the best time to drop the worst lines
you nearly made me cry again this time
cheat
anger
this is so messed up
amy
destroy yourself _ see who gives a ****
why did you have to go
the one time i needed you
sticks and stones may break my bones but words like yours make me want to die
i wish i was loved
something to remember you by
forget the day i liked you
forget the day i cried
forget the day i needed you
forget i ever tried
i wish i could
i ****ing loved you
but it wasn't meant to be
i just found out that you were gone
and you never even said goodbye
one day i thought you were the one
but now you make me want to die
love me - someone has to
liar
only a friend
you dont rule my life
rejected
sorrow
there was a time when i thought you were the one
you can't tell me how to feel
you made me do this
you made me want to cry
you made me feel like this
you made me want to [red]DIE[/red]
i'm forced to fake a smile, a laugh, every day
i want to run away and never say goodbye
you're about as fake as the rumors you spread
i was sick to death when i realised you never cared
hey, what does it feel like to have complete control of my life?
love
hate
what does it matter?
you're just like all the others, and you don't even try to be different
it's your fault i feel this way
why should i be blamed for something YOU did?
broken
no hope
if i can't have a life, why shouldn't i just end it all?
on the surface he looks calm and relaxed... inside he's broken, angry and losing the will to live
nobody would care if i just went away forever
you were the one good thing i had, and even you turned on me in the end
if i could do one thing different, i would have never met anyone like you
you're the reason i did this
every time you call me a name or punch me, i lose a little part of my will to live
the way you treat me will end up killing me
you broke my life and left me to pick up the pieces
why don't i just give it up?
i'll never get anywhere like this
why be up when you're down?
why laugh when you can cry?
why smile when you can frown?
why live when you can die?
why bother living when no-one cares anyway?
why try to do it when you know you're not ready?
why pretend to be happy when you're not okay?
why listen to those idiots and just end it already?
the world's a lump of crap and i'm the poor stableboy who has to clean up everybody else's ****
DEAD ON THE INSIDE
RIP All My Hopes and Dreams (I Hardly Knew Thee)
crushed by the hand of god
tried to survive but couldn't handle it
cause of death: suicide
how am i? i'm angry, broken and want to die
if you weren't there, i'd still be here
the one thing that keeps me happy is that it will all be over soon... just not soon enough
why do i put up with it?
an open wound bleeds a thousand words
child + anger + yelling = sad child
sad child + abuse + violence = depressed child
depressed child - will to live = suicidal child
suicidal child - hopes and dreams = hopeless child
hopeless child + paranoia = me
i'm the only normal one here... YOU PEOPLE ARE THE ONES WHO ARE INSANE
i walk this giant world with fear and worry about whats going to happen next
fate has its cruel hand around the gun, and i beg it to pull the trigger
no happiness, no friends, no relief, no freedom, no hope, no life
if i can't be happy, why should you be?
what makes me so different?
my life is ruined and chaotic, my world is empty and barren, but why are you still laughing?
if only you gived a damn, things might be different
i'm searching for that little shard of life that could save me, but it seems so out of reach
would anyone really care if i went away for good?
we live in a world of chaos, violence and destruction... but that doesn't mean you can't just listen for a change!
you asked me what was wrong, i smiled and said NOTHING, then i turned round and said EVERYTHING
you ripped me apart, and all for nothing
a wonderful world? we live in a place full of war, famine and death
i hate everything
why can't it all just be over
i should just leave you to get on with your problems - you don't seem to care about mine
cause of death: YOU
the meaning of life: be born, be angry, be depressed, be suicidal, be dead
you seem to be under the impression that there's actually a point to life - you're DEAD WRONG
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broken on the inside
my soul smashed against a wall
nobody left to save it
what do i do?
i'm just a shard of who i used to be
wishing someone would save me
if only someone knew i wasn't okay after all
scared to ask people for help
i don't even want your help - you'll just **** on me afterwards
don't want to be helped, just want to die and get it over with
with death, at least i'll know what happens next
a barren, hopeless void
kind of like now, really, just without all the ****
there's just no point. never has been, never will be
lost my spark? lost my life, more like.
you know something's wrong when you don't even want help
all i need is to stop feeling like this - death's the only way out
my key to freedom
why did nobody see this coming?
the signals are all there
all of this is bubbling under the surface, and the cracks are just starting to show
want to escape it all, just run away from it and forget everything and everyone
i just want to start a brand new life, start a blank page, a fresh sheet
i'm sick and tired of the life i have at the moment, i want it to end
picture my life: every little piece of hate is a brick, all being built up into a wall
this wall is surrounding me, overwhelming me, suffocating me
with this wall still building up around me, i can't see any other way out
going 200 miles an hour in the wrong lane
bleeding my way to a new life
Sorry it's a really long post! But it's my way of expressing.
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