Graphic / Triggering - So f*d up I accidentaly SI'd

pixie*lyssie · 20-02-2008, 12:19 PM

Yeah basically what the tital says. Walking out of the batheroom after a cutting spree (if that's what you wanna call it) with the tool in my hand and it's apparently too close to my other hand so as I'm opening the door it swipes across my other hand and makes a rather odd but deeper than I'd like cut. I was a bit pissed off with myself but in another sence didn't mind... it was... rather nice... the blood and all. But not the unexpectancy of it all... that's what I didn't like. And also I was getting rather pissed of with my tools as like they weren't 'useful' enough untill... I actually found one that was decent... now my mum better not find it sitting under the beechams box or else I'll just do it worse because I need my tools at the moment.

pixie*lyssie · 20-02-2008, 01:08 PM

sorry if I trigger anyone

lostdaisy · 20-02-2008, 03:32 PM

Hey sorry if i'm not mch help but sounds like you're really triggered at the moment, and i know what that feels like. I've si'd without meaning to as well. if you want someone to talk to i'm happy to listen. hope your ok and take care xxx

pixie*lyssie · 20-02-2008, 09:09 PM

SI'd again today in the bath. I just feel so low and depressed. I'm not even hungry... I forced myself to eat something for dinner but now I feel sick.

little mermaid · 20-02-2008, 09:14 PM

be careful. 'accidentally' self harming can be so dangerous.
I really don't want this to come off as "tip sharing", I'm a bit nervous to post it but that is not how i mean it at all. BUT if you're going to do it anyway, you need to wrap your "tool" in a cloth to prevent that from happening when you don't mean for it to.
I would love to say "don't hurt yourself!".. but really, that's just ineffective advice and a waste of both of our time for me to tell you. if you are going to be doing this, do it in the safest way possible. don't put yourself in the position where you can accidentally do serious harm to yourself.

pixie*lyssie · 21-02-2008, 11:20 AM

I shall wrap it in a cloth. *goes to do so* thank you for the replys I feel so low right now and I don't know what to do with myself. I still really wanna cut.

((deleted)) · 21-02-2008, 12:01 PM

Lyssie babe. *hugs you tightly* you can get through this. Have you tried the other techniques like holding ice?

Is this to do with what you posted the other day?

babe, i'm so sorry, i don't know what to say, but please try to keep safe. if you must cut, then please try to limit the depth and take care of the wounds....please try to manage the damage.

I love you Lyssie, and i hate to see you hurting so much. can you say anymore about why you are so triggered to cut right now?

I'm not on much this weekend, but if you PM me i will get back to you as soon as i am online.

Ruthie
xxxxx