I've recently come out of hospital. I was on a pychiatric ward for two weeks because I was experiencing pyhcosis (a voice in my head)
and acute depression and anxiety that was pushing me towards suicide.
I explained all of this to my CMHT and then a doctor in A+E and was then volantaraly admitted into hospital.
While I was there I was kept safe from my suicidal impulses and I sorted out new medication.
The first week there I was just still feeling awful and suicidal, but the second week I was starting to feel more optimistic and by the time I came home with my new medication I was very optimistic.
I was given numbers for the crisis team (
what is that?)
and I'm supposed to keep in touch with a social worker(or case worker?)
who can help me.
I've seen the pychiatrist once since I came out,
this was a couple of days after I came out (so I was still feeling good)
and I also saw the social worker a few days after coming out (feeling good)
So first week home no problems, but now...
I feel like I've just been dumped back into my old ways and life.
I'm still waiting to hear about a pychologist meeting??
Can anybody give me any info on this?
All my suicidal thoughts/feelings are slowly returning just as bad as before
(I really don't know how much longer I can hold out tbh
I am
VERY suicidal,
so close to ending it you wouldn't believe)
The thing is I have a meeting with my social workers at the Comunity Mental Health building on thursday,
do I voice my concerns to them?
What can they do?
What would they say?
I don't even know what I want from them. I just know that I can't cope just being dumped back home, because nothing has changed, I'm still suicidal and I don't know how much longer I can hold out...
I know nobody knows my social workers , but what has been your experiences with these type of people?
I'm also kind of scared of telling them some stuff I've done in case they want me to go back to hospital,
If I tell them that I tried to hang myself twice a few days ago,
would they make me go back to hospital? or want me to go back to hospital?
Because I want to be honest with them about just how bad I've been feeling (actually trying to hang myself since I've been back)
but I don't want them to freak on me and try and have me sectioned or anything....can they do that??
I'm confused, sorry, can anybody help me and answer some of these questions??
thanks, much appreciated (also any info at all on your CMHT?)
