Triggering (SI) - upset and emotional

[pea soup]

im really emotional right now.
im laughing one minute and crying the next.
i think its due to my period coming soon but it still sucks.

i just had a conversation with my sister. she told me that she claimed our brother on her taxes for last year. i said half jokingly that she should give me part of it because i took care of him last year more than she did.
she got offended and of course told me that she wasnt giving me any.

i cant file a tax return because i live on disability. but i did take care of Jake for a good while last year after our mother got married.

im feeling the need to harm really strong right now. i doubt i will because it would upset Kelly so much. plus i have alot of appointments this week and next, and i dont want anyone seeing.

god....i hate this.
sorry.
xxx

[*Kelly*]

sweet buttercup, i wish to God there was something i could do to help you!!!
as you know i'm very emotionally unstable also and not level headed at all, but God knows i will do anything i can for you. i know you don't "believe" or have much faith. and you have every right to feel the way you do. but that's all i know to do for now. you'll be starting therapy again soon and that should help alot. just don't lose all faith and hope please. it WILL get better. it WILL! just think..... you'll be seeing your precious baby boy next month playing at his concert. :) and time is healing you. it's a nasty, extremely painful, and slow process. i know. but it IS healing. i love you soo soo very very much my sweet buttercup. please hang in there. and it'll all get better. it will. hang on to ME. i'm here and always will be.

always your baby girl
ALWAYS!!! :)
XXXOOOOOOOOOXXX

we ALL love you to pieces... and you CAN do this.

[blondiebear]

I'm moody by nature, then when cranky week hits, my husband thinks that PMS stands for Pissed and Moody Susan. Brat. True though.

My sister thinks she's in charge of taking care of our parents. She is welcome to think that. They've told me that I will be in charge for their end of life decisions. More unlady like language. Plus my sister is arguing with me over the financial value of the baby grand piano she learned on vs. the second hand treadle machine where I first learned to sew.
How I will handle that can be described in two words; Professional Appraisal. After I get my sewing machine out of my parents house because I don't have a lot of room here. Maybe it's time to make room.

I'm so glad that friends are the family we choose. And that we can choose our friends.

I'm sorry your sister is making you upset. Please don't physically injure yourself because she is emotionally injuring you. You deserve better than that.
*gives you an understanding hug*

[Mandimoo]

you didnt just look after Jake hun, you paid out for everything including his housing/bills when he is not your responsibility. *hugs* hope you feel better soon hunny, mand x

[DUNFERMLINEBOY]

Don't let anyone push you over the edge like that! You know the truth stuff other peoples bad attitudes! You take care