Triggering - My autobiography in poems-please let me know what you think

[hopeandsaneity]

i have been inspired by the many people here sharing there storys.Your all so brave.
i have always planned to one day share my story but am never quite strong enough.I have wrote many poems and if i put them all together it actually speaks of my life and its the only way i can safely express myself.
so i going to do it.i am going to share with you.
please be patient though.I think this will be difficult.
Will post my first poem soon
Thankyou

[hopeandsaneity]

my life is terrible and glum
noone understands what i do or what i,ve done
Im not being the proper me
Cant people see im unhappy?
i want someone to really love and care for me
i want people to see all the things that are troubling me
i dont want to go to school
i dont want to go out
i want to stop in my room not doing anything
lying on my bed thinking and dreaming then
gradually falling asleep
Please someone help me
Doesnt anyone see?
i hate my life
i want to die
they wont stop bullying me
i need someone to listen and understand me
i need someone to help me
Will anyone help me?

I was 11yrs old when i wrote this.I will write a bit more later.

[hopeandsaneity]

i remember looking forward to high school.I had all these dreams and expectations.i wasnt to get bullied anymore,i was going to have loads of friends.It didnt work out that way.
i had no friends in primary school.the children use to call me weirdo and pinocicio.i was the one that if they touched me they would all get germs.
even the teachers singled me out.i use to hide in the toilets every chance i got.
i thought things would be different in high school.They were.but not the way i wanted.
my first day at high school i remember well.i was eating lunch with a girl (who was my friend for about the week) on the school field.thats when the first incident occured,i was offered a ciggarette by a girl who was 2years older than me.she also bullied me when i was at primary school.
i said no to the cigarette.She then tried to force it in my mouth and the next thing that happened was i couldnt breath.she had her hands round my throat.i remember i tried to scream but no sound came out.everything started to turn white.I then woke up on the grass.lunchtime was over and noone was around except for a teacher shouting at me to go inside.
That was my first day.Things just got worse and worse.

[mesmerized.]

*hugs you*
It's great that you're posting these, I know it can't be easy.
Hope you're alright, take care of you.
& keep writing :)

[hopeandsaneity]

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Originally Posted by mesmerized.

*hugs you*
It's great that you're posting these, I know it can't be easy.
Hope you're alright, take care of you.
& keep writing :)

Thankyou.I didnt actually think anyone would be intrested in reading my story.you have helped encouarge me.
*hugs back*

[So_Lost_And_Alone]

Hey hun, these are beautiful and amazing you have some great talent. I hope writing it helps and i'm sorry that you had to go through this *huggles* keep it up these are great.

take care
Alarna
xoxo