Despite having really bad urges, there is obviously something that is holding you back from cutting, something in your mind that knows it isn't a healthy thing to be doing. You're showing a lot of strength and self control right now by resisting the urges to do it and I think that's something you should be proud of. Being two months free is also something you should be really proud of. Right now it must be hard because you're still very focussed on SIing and it probably seems like this is going to be the case forever. But this does pass, you won't always be so fixated on SIing and it won't always be the first and last thing on your mind. It might take some time to pass and I can understand how frustrating that is, because it makes you feel as though you should just give in to it, but give yourself some time and things will change. There must be some kind of reason that you decided to stop in the first place, so try reminding yourself of that and remember why you want stop SIing.
It sounds a little like you've replaced sex with SIing, and although you're not physically hurting yourself anymore, please be careful because using sex in this way could end up making you feel hurt. It might help to find a different release for your emotions - try writing down how you feel, talking to people about and working through the causes of what you're feeling.
Take care
xxx
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