Triggering (Suicide) - ...

perfection is a flaw · 10-06-2007, 05:45 PM

when EVERYTHING is telling you to give up is there any point in trying to hold on?

i have NOT A SINGLE reason to still be here

life shouldnt be this hard
but it is

my minds blurry
cant think
been trying to reply on here but cant even do that

stupid heads spinning out of me
i hate this place
they said theyd take my laptop away from me
they say a lot of things but still

beyond repair
thats what she said
beyond repair

even she wants me to give up
are therapists supposed to tell you that
well its not like anyone cares is it

i hate her
why wont she let me see those tapes
says i cant handle them
i hate her sooooo much
shes making me worse
why wont she let me see them
i cant cope with all these holes in my memory
i NEED to know what happened

how much worse can it get
the flashbacks scare the fuck out of me
the hallucinations/voices dont exactly help either

why am i still here

what is the point

why does everyone give up on me

why am i still here

so numb and yet in so much pain

confused

Nici-x · 10-06-2007, 07:20 PM

Oh babe, im so sorry to hear that you are going through such a difficult time right now. We are all here for you, we wont give up on you.. You are NOT alone in this..keep talking.
Please don't give up, keep fighting this, your strong and you are a fighter not a quitter. Ok well first of all, i dont even know you.. but i have one reason for you to stick around. Ive seen your replies to people.. they have been fantastic.. and have really made a difference. Your a good person, we need people like you in this world.
Your are not beyond repair.. no one is beyond repair.. so ignore that because its a load of bull.
I know things seem difficult at the moment. But people keep telling me that things DO get better.. im going to try and trust them and believe that. You do the same, believe that things get better. At least we have hope. Were all in this togetther. We can do this. YOU can do this. Believe in yourself ok babe.
Im here if you need to talk.
Take care of yourself lovely
x x x

perfection is a flaw · 10-06-2007, 09:04 PM

im not strong..........im weak
im not a fighter.............im pathetic
i may not be a quitter.......but i never succeed

i havent come out of my room all day, i hate being hospitalised its like being in prison. they cant take my laptop away from me its not fair, i need it. god that makes me sound so retarded.

i have broken glass.......

soo tempting............

i hate the heat, it makes my veins throb through my pale skin.
blue
fat blue veins

so very tempting.................

i could bleed out in a matter of minutes..........

perfection is a flaw · 10-06-2007, 09:17 PM

i cant do this i really cant
i cant i cant i cant i cant i cant i cant i cant i cant i cant i cant i cant i cant i cant i cant i cant i canti cant icant icant i cany i cant i cant i canticant i cant i cant i cant i cant i cant cant i cant i canti canti acnt i cant i cant i cant
i know that suicide is not the answer
but whats left
this is not living
i havent lived for years
promises ive made to people
promises to hold on
do they mean anything?
yes, i do keep my promises but this is too much
besides when have any of you ever kept a promise made to me?
I CANT COPE
i dont know what to do
staring at this broken glass
and at my wrists
HELP ME

perfection is a flaw · 10-06-2007, 09:22 PM

PLEASE

taintedangel22 · 10-06-2007, 09:36 PM

hun you can do this, you can get better, it takes a little work but you can do!
you might not think that your a fighter, but if you try you can be!
and you might not think that people care, but people care much more than you think!
please dont do it hun!
itll get better i promise!
please beleive me, ive been there and it does!
chin up PM me if youd like
katy
x

Greyscale · 10-06-2007, 09:52 PM

You can do this you can get help you can get better. It'll be okay. It has to for you, kk? It'll be okay. xx Laura

perfection is a flaw · 11-06-2007, 11:52 AM

i gave in
didnt even manage to hit anything major
i have more stitched up wounds
i cant get the words out
i feel so low

guiltyinnocence · 11-06-2007, 04:36 PM

*hugs*
you can get through this, you can
hang in there
saz xxxx

perfection is a flaw · 11-06-2007, 07:04 PM

thank you to everyone who replied, it does help im so lonely right now

im so lost
i just want to go home
but i dont know where that is anymore

taintedangel22 · 11-06-2007, 07:45 PM

aww hun, dont worry about it.
everyone makes mitskes!
PM me if you want to talk!
ill stop you being lonely, or try at least!
katy
x